Dad said me to kill myself

[lillmonix3]

My father told me to go hang myself. It happened when we were working in the house. I forgot to do something and he told me that I was useless and to go hang myself. I have depression and I am already being treated by a psychiatrist, I take antidepressants.


I decided that I would wait for a few weeks when I would be left alone at home and do it. I know where the lace is. I also plan to cut my veins and take a lot of pills when I get into the noose so that they can't save me

 

[ylenol]

Who's they ? Why would they save you ? Doesn't your father want you to die ? I don't understand.

 

[lillmonix3]

Who's they ? Why would they save you ? Doesn't your father want you to die ? I don't understand.

My mother doesn't want me to die. She can call an ambulance.

 

[getoutgirl]

I'm so sorry you had to hear that from your father of all people. He is a shitty father and a bad person. That's my opinion, but I don't think there's a way around that if he has said that to his child.
Please, don't commit suicide out of people like him or cos they tell you. They don't deserve that, and you don't deserve to have to stand them either. Speak with your psychiatrist about it if you can. But it's fucked up he said that while you are dealing with this, I'm so sorry :(

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Oh got it, you listen to your father more. Is mommy going to be the first one to find your final work ?

Dude, fuck off. How about instead of making fun of them you just shut the fuck up.

@lillmonix3 just ignore them. They seem to like going onto people's threads to be an asshole. Somehow, they are ruder than me, which is saying a lot.

 

[ylenol]

Dude, fuck off. How about instead of making fun of them you just shut the fuck up.

@lillmonix3 just ignore them. They seem to like going onto people's threads to be an asshole. Somehow, they are ruder than me, which is saying a lot.

Oh i'm sorry if that came across as making fun of, definetely wasn't my intention, there's no need for vulgarity. I'm genuinely curious about how they imagine things will take shape.

 

[NoDeathNoFear]

I am sorry your father is saying such horrible things to you.

 

[Flyleaves]

If as a father you say this to your child he is a miserable human being. As a parent you have an obligation to your child to protect them from your first day of being a father untill the last.

Some people just shouldn't become parents.

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

Your dads a huge POS. He's projecting his own hatred for life onto you, which is very unfair.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Oh i'm sorry if that came across as making fun of, definetely wasn't my intention, there's no need for vulgarity. I'm genuinely curious about how they imagine things will take shape.

Considering your post history, I doubt that

 

[ylenol]

Considering your post history, I doubt that

Sorry for not sugarcoating and being direct, perhaps I should send them on their merry way with the usual ''im so sowwy !! hope it gets better !!'', I'm sure the platitudes saved former ss members

 

[Unknown21]

How could a parent tell this to their child. But no wonder, I live with the same kind of shitty people.

 

[unluckysadness]

WTF what happened to your father ?? How can he say such a thing to his child ??!! It's so cruel. My God this is hellish... This guy needs an ambulance right now imo

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I might be imagining this, but it might be that a long time ago the phrase "go hang yourself" was not a literal suggestion to ctb. It was more like saying "f*ck off" today. I'm not trying to make excuses for what your dad said to you. Very sorry he said that to you.

 

[Saponification]

Sorry for not sugarcoating and being direct, perhaps I should send them on their merry way with the usual ''im so sowwy !! hope it gets better !!'', I'm sure the platitudes saved former ss members

And I'm sure your way of being "direct" would do a better job of dissuading members here from committing suicide.

 

[Obliviate]

I hate humans. Especially the male humans. They are the reason for every problem on this earth.

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

I hate humans. Especially the male humans. They are the reason for every problem on this earth.

I think this is a very unfair generalization of an entire gender, my mom for example ruined my life. The mental abuse she put me through was pure evil. She called me worthless all my life from childhood to adult, that id never amount to anything, that I should have been aborted, that I was beneath an animal. She is BPD narcissist, she always put me down to lift herself up. Every time she gossiped with her friends and peers she always tell them how much she hated me and wished I was out of her life. This destroyed my confidence and self worth growing up and made me feel completely worthless, that I was better off dead, and made me suicidal for most of my life.

People can be evil and problematic on both sides of the genders.

 

[CatLvr]

I think this is a very unfair generalization of an entire gender, my mom for example ruined my life. The mental abuse she put me through was pure evil. She called me worthless all my life from childhood to adult, that id never amount to anything, that I should have been aborted, that I was beneath an animal. She is BPD narcissist, she always put me down to lift herself up. Every time she gossiped with her friends and peers she always tell them how much she hated me and wished I was out of her life. This destroyed my confidence growing up and made me feel worthless and suicidal for most of my life.

People can be evil and problematic on both sides of the genders.

Yep. My mother was the personification of pure evil. Unfortunately you cannot tell whether a person is going to be a miserable parent by what sex they happen to be.

To the OP: Dude, I am so sorry. I have no clue what would make a parent think that it was okay to talk like that to a child. (As in their offspring -- I'm sure you are, at the very least, a young adult because you are posting here.) I cannot imagine a situation where I would think it was appropriate to say such a thing to one of my children and, like I said, I am sorry your father thought that was an okay thing to say to you.

 

[Obliviate]

I think this is a very unfair generalization of an entire gender, my mom for example ruined my life. The mental abuse she put me through was pure evil. She called me worthless all my life from childhood to adult, that id never amount to anything, that I should have been aborted, that I was beneath an animal. She is BPD narcissist, she always put me down to lift herself up. Every time she gossiped with her friends and peers she always tell them how much she hated me and wished I was out of her life. This destroyed my confidence and self worth growing up and made me feel completely worthless, that I was better off dead, and made me suicidal for most of my life.

People can be evil and problematic on both sides of the genders.

Hi, I wanna start off by saying what you experienced from the abuse of a woman is extremely valid and I'm incredibly sorry you did go through that. I do stand on what I say though. Women can be evil 100%. But MALE HUMANS are the sole reason for EVERY issue on this earth. Every single one of them there will be an evil male at the origin point. Even problems that women face. Women hating other women. Internal misogyny. All of it roots from the patriarchy that males have created and continue to solidify. Women have been incredibly nasty to me as well and you know why they were? Because of a male. Male centered women, pick me women. The behavior of a woman can lead back to generations of women being mistreated and indoctrinated with the patriarchy so they pass on the generational trauma and curse instead of breaking the cycle. Well the cycle will break with me. Males have single handedly destroyed and continue to destroy humanity and they have brainwashed and indoctrinated women to fight alongside them while they actively abuse those same women. I DO NOT support every woman. I hold them accountable when they are in the wrong. Are there great men out there? Sure but incredibly rare. My field of career was going to be criminal so I studied cases all the time. Males ALWAYS taking the lead of the most demonic things I've studied.

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

Hi, I wanna start off by saying what you experienced from the abuse of a woman is extremely valid and I'm incredibly sorry you did go through that. I do stand on what I say though. Women can be evil 100%. But MALE HUMANS are the sole reason for EVERY issue on this earth. Every single one of them there will be an evil male at the origin point. Even problems that women face. Women hating other women. Internal misogyny. All of it roots from the patriarchy that males have created and continue to solidify. Women have been incredibly nasty to me as well and you know why they were? Because of a male. Male centered women, pick me women. The behavior of a woman can lead back to generations of women being mistreated and indoctrinated with the patriarchy so they pass on the generational trauma and curse instead of breaking the cycle. Well the cycle will break with me. Males have single handedly destroyed and continue to destroy humanity and they have brainwashed and indoctrinated women to fight alongside them while they actively abuse those same women. I DO NOT support every woman. I hold them accountable when they are in the wrong. Are there great men out there? Sure but incredibly rare. My field of career was going to be criminal so I studied cases all the time. Males ALWAYS taking the lead of the most demonic things I've studied.

I hear you, and I know you've been deeply hurt by men. I myself have been deeply hurt by men, sexually assaulted and almost raped 4 times in four separate occasions by gay men and I'm as straight as an arrow. I have been deeply betrayed by a group of men I thought were my brothers and would throw their lives down for me. However, I still must fundamentally disagree with you.

You're viewing this as a zero-sum game: a world where one group's win must come from another group's loss. You believe if men are the cause of any problem, it proves their evil, and if women are, it's still a male-driven issue. In this worldview, there is no possibility for individual evil, only group blame.

My experience with my mother and a long life of 40+ years has showed me something different: that individuals, regardless of their gender, can possess profound evil on their own. Her abuse of me wasn't due to some patriarchal system; it was her choice, her cruelty.

I don't believe in a zero-sum game of gender. I believe people are individually responsible for their actions. It's clear we see the world from two entirely different points of view, and I don't think either of us will convince the other.

But know that I understand your pain, we have both suffered from the other gender. Just as you have hatred for men, I too have a deep distrust of women, because the woman that was supposed to love me abused me and she effectively killed me as she will be one of the reasons I CTB, so any woman I see - i see a reflection of the cruelty of my mother in them. But I will not blame all women, there are good women in the world, and I will not blame all men, there are good men in the world. Ive been saved by a few...

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Your father has betrayed you , instead of wanting to spend time with you he berated you in ways that shouldn't be possible for a parent to conjure up in their wildest nightmares; he is nothing more than a POS that should be left to rot.

I would be extremely weary about him from now on. Tell your psychiatrist this encounter with your father and discuss further on any other doubts you might have about him. Do you have any other fears while being around him? I don't want to imply anything just please be careful.

Hi, I wanna start off by saying what you experienced from the abuse of a woman is extremely valid and I'm incredibly sorry you did go through that. I do stand on what I say though. Women can be evil 100%. But MALE HUMANS are the sole reason for EVERY issue on this earth. Every single one of them there will be an evil male at the origin point. Even problems that women face. Women hating other women. Internal misogyny. All of it roots from the patriarchy that males have created and continue to solidify. Women have been incredibly nasty to me as well and you know why they were? Because of a male. Male centered women, pick me women. The behavior of a woman can lead back to generations of women being mistreated and indoctrinated with the patriarchy so they pass on the generational trauma and curse instead of breaking the cycle. Well the cycle will break with me. Males have single handedly destroyed and continue to destroy humanity and they have brainwashed and indoctrinated women to fight alongside them while they actively abuse those same women. I DO NOT support every woman. I hold them accountable when they are in the wrong. Are there great men out there? Sure but incredibly rare. My field of career was going to be criminal so I studied cases all the time. Males ALWAYS taking the lead of the most demonic things I've studied.

While your message was not directed at me I want to say that I understand your point of view, in fact I share a large part of the views that you do, many girls and women that I've met have some sort of internalized misogyny and the one in the position of power (most likely a man) can always influence both men and women; However there are also many people who are simply born evil , maybe it's due to genetics? or maybe there is something else.

I've suffered unjust actions at the hands of both genders and not for a second did I think there was some external influence behind that, just evil people doing evil things.

When I did suffer because of idiotic kids influenced by their alcoholic fathers/mothers, who were influenced badly by their grandparents and so on, I knew because of the lingo they used , because the way they made me suffer was not as mechanic and natural as those whom I'd deem truly evil , it was something they were taught to do.

Also please just as people here do not use the world female to describe women , please don't use the word male to describe men.

 

[Obliviate]

I hear you, and I know you've been deeply hurt by men. I myself have been deeply hurt by men, sexually assaulted and almost raped 4 times in four separate occasions by gay men and I'm as straight as an arrow. I have been deeply betrayed by a group of men I thought were my brothers and would throw their lives down for me. However, I still must fundamentally disagree with you.

You're viewing this as a zero-sum game: a world where one group's win must come from another group's loss. You believe if men are the cause of any problem, it proves their evil, and if women are, it's still a male-driven issue. In this worldview, there is no possibility for individual evil, only group blame.

My experience with my mother and a long life of 40+ years has showed me something different: that individuals, regardless of their gender, can possess profound evil on their own. Her abuse of me wasn't due to some patriarchal system; it was her choice, her cruelty.

I don't believe in a zero-sum game of gender. I believe people are individually responsible for their actions. It's clear we see the world from two entirely different points of view, and I don't think either of us will convince the other.

But know that I understand your pain, we have both suffered from the other gender. Just as you have hatred for men, I too have a deep distrust of women, because the woman that was supposed to love me abused me and she effectively killed me as she will be one of the reasons I CTB, so any woman I see - i see a reflection of the cruelty of my mother in them. But I will not blame all women, there are good women in the world, and I will not blame all men, there are good men in the world. Ive been saved by a few...

Again, incredibly sorry for what you have been through. I'm assuming you are a man? I will agree with you on one thing about each individual having the ability to be responsible for their own actions.
However, you need to understand the sole root of how any why those actions came to be. That is when the human psyche comes into play. Do you know why your mother treated you the way she did? My mother is garbage as well and she treated me horribly because she's an internal misogynist. She learned it from her mother which was taught by her mother and our culture which was created by men. The cycle of abuse. If there really is no link to a man then yeah I'll agree that your mother is just walking pure evil with no justification behind it.

I don't think it's fair to compare women and men's trauma and abuses nor is it ok to dismiss each other's. But men will NEVER have the mere thought of what it is like to be a woman in a world that has deemed them as sub human from the second they are identified as a female in the mother's womb. To live as a prey 24/7 where we are quite literally being hunted. Dismissed, discriminated, abused, graped, targeted. There is not ONE safe place for a woman in this world not one. This world was created by men for men. Being dismissed when we are honestly the more intelligent gender who are meant to be the leaders. I WAS a women's rights advocate. WAS. Not anymore because of exactly women like your mother. I have advocated and have been on the side of men who have been abused by other men and women. But I will not sit here and act like most men aren't evil and that most evil does not originate from men. You have been the victim of men yourself. Most men's biggest enemies are OTHER MEN and somehow they will take their anger out on women. Men have an entire history of the most demonic evil violence. Case after case. The things I have seen, read, studied makes me wanna Ctb. Horrible hyper capitalist society where we are slaves and earn poverty wages causing humans to go INSANE and disregard mental health? Who's fault? Men. There are countries out there run by WOMEN that are thriving.

I am on your side I want to make it 100% clear. But I do stand on what I say and it seems you do as well. But what we can agree on is that regardless of gender, HUMANS are awful.

Your father has betrayed you , instead of wanting to spend time with you he berated you in ways that shouldn't be possible for a parent to conjure up in their wildest nightmares; he is nothing more than a POS that should be left to rot.

I would be extremely weary about him from now on. Tell your psychiatrist this encounter with your father and discuss further on any other doubts you might have about him. Do you have any other fears while being around him? I don't want to imply anything just please be careful.

While your message was not directed at me I want to say that I understand your point of view, in fact I share a large part of the views that you do, many girls and women that I've met have some sort of internalized misogyny and the one in the position of power (most likely a man) can always influence both men and women; However there are also many people who are simply born evil , maybe it's due to genetics? or maybe there is something else.

I've suffered unjust actions at the hands of both genders and not for a second did I think there was some external influence behind that, just evil people doing evil things.

When I did suffer because of idiotic kids influenced by their alcoholic fathers/mothers, who were influenced badly by their grandparents and so on, I knew because of the lingo they used , because the way they made me suffer was not as mechanic and natural as those whom I'd deem truly evil , it was something they were taught to do.

Also please just as people here do not use the world female to describe women , please don't use the word male to describe men.

Hey, I think there are some genetic influences where women and men's brains are incredibly different. A male doctor actually did a study where he stated a women's brain has a lot more activity and activation on the critical thinking, reliable decision making sections of the brain implying that WOMEN should be the leaders. I have also heard the theories of men just having a violent/sexual deviant gene which in my opinion could very much be true. I've suffered from both genders as well but I men take the cake for being the most vile. The amount of misogyny in every day things is astronomical. We would be a much better world if women were in charge no doubt about it. And then maybe we would not need this website. Women are awful no doubt but they don't come close to a man's evilness.