davidtorez
Warlock
- Mar 8, 2024
- 729
It feels as though my time is coming up soon. My insomnia is getting worse and worse. Joint pains. I literally stay awake for 24 hours every second day. It soon going to cost me my part time job which I need because the pension is barely enough. My fiancee is in brazil and I've only seen her for 6 weeks back in Feb this year . We have a date set for May 8 next year to get married here in Sydney, we applied for her visa a few months ago . We're both the same. That's why we clicked immediately. We both come from broken families , suffer depression and anxiety , have similar philosophical views. I cant ctb without ever seeing her again. Im thinking of going to brazil soon in order to ctb there.
I'm thinking of bringing my nembutal with me in checked baggage . She knows my plans and told me she's sad but accepts whatever decision I make. My plan is to spend my last days with her in brazil then peacefully fall asleep . Last time I went to brazil this year they didnt check my baggage when I arrived in sao paulo or Recife up north. What's the chances I'll be able to get the nembutal into brazil in checked luggage ? Do they scan the baggage? I wasn't asked anything when I arrived in brazil 6 months ago. I just picked up my baggage at carousel and went on my way. My stress and depression is at a all new time high. I can feel I'm giving up internally , I'm having heart palpitations hot flushes in bed every night. My brain is just totally fried! I even tried new drugs like mirtazapine. It didnt help me at all. 3 different doctors told me.they cant do much except refer me to a psychologist. I tried seeing a psychologist for once a month for a year a while back and it did absolutely nothing! Maybe some people are beyond help.
Its almost time . I never actually thought id make it to 40 let alone 44. I think its a good age to die .
I'm thinking of bringing my nembutal with me in checked baggage . She knows my plans and told me she's sad but accepts whatever decision I make. My plan is to spend my last days with her in brazil then peacefully fall asleep . Last time I went to brazil this year they didnt check my baggage when I arrived in sao paulo or Recife up north. What's the chances I'll be able to get the nembutal into brazil in checked luggage ? Do they scan the baggage? I wasn't asked anything when I arrived in brazil 6 months ago. I just picked up my baggage at carousel and went on my way. My stress and depression is at a all new time high. I can feel I'm giving up internally , I'm having heart palpitations hot flushes in bed every night. My brain is just totally fried! I even tried new drugs like mirtazapine. It didnt help me at all. 3 different doctors told me.they cant do much except refer me to a psychologist. I tried seeing a psychologist for once a month for a year a while back and it did absolutely nothing! Maybe some people are beyond help.
Its almost time . I never actually thought id make it to 40 let alone 44. I think its a good age to die .
