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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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I don't know if it's the trauma from waking up from so many overdoses or if I'm just completely tired of life... but I do cry about 90 percent of the time after waking up now.

I really wish dying in your sleep was more common...
 
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ObsidianWatcher

ObsidianWatcher

Member
Dec 12, 2025
47
It would be rather convenient. I used to wish that I could just will myself to stop, to drift off into nothing. Can never be that simply, unfortunately.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,068
I wish it were death every time I go to sleep. I cope by scrolling my phone and living in this weird idle state where I say little nonsense rhymes to myself about how bad my situation is. I just want it to be over. I need to summon the courage to use that rope. I already have the slip knot tied.
 
n0rth3rnSh0gun

n0rth3rnSh0gun

Member
Nov 26, 2025
14
Same... I've been told I need a cpap machine... my ex gf used to tell me I'd stop breathing for up to a minute when sleeping... I snore like a diesel engine but I guess it's not the way I'm gonna go...
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
Same?

I don't know. Every day I have some kind of disappointment. I feel like I'm cursed. Just tired of it.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
501
I really wish dying in your sleep was more common...
I had both a family member & a friend who died of silent heart attacks while they slept. Friend was in her 30's, she was very fit but on the Atkins diet, just in case anyone wants to increase their odds.
 
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endoftheroad45

Member
Sep 27, 2025
49
I average 3-4 hours of sleep a night and have done for months, after those short stints, I always wake disappointed, not for the lack of sleep, but for the fact that im waking up again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,013
I really understand feeling so tired of it all, all I want is to never wake again and finally be at peace from this torturous, cruel existence, I just hope for no more suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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sombie

sombie

Member
Oct 25, 2023
64
I really understand feeling so tired of it all, all I want is to never wake again and finally be at peace from this torturous, cruel existence, I just hope for no more suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
I relate to this so much you wouldn't believe
 
Sheisgoneee

Sheisgoneee

Member
Dec 19, 2025
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I don't know if it's the trauma from waking up from so many overdoses or if I'm just completely tired of life... but I do cry about 90 percent of the time after waking up now.

I really wish dying in your sleep was more common...
The same happens to me as well. I see it as my nervous system tired of not being able to completely shut down. I really do wish it was possible to just visualize yourself having a heart attack and it would just happen.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
472
The same happens to me as well. I see it as my nervous system tired of not being able to completely shut down. I really do wish it was possible to just visualize yourself having a heart attack and it would just happen.
I often wish to "manifest" death like other people manifest good things in their life. No such luck for me 😩😩😩
 
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Sheisgoneee

Sheisgoneee

Member
Dec 19, 2025
23
I often wish to "manifest" death like other people manifest good things in their life. No such luck for me 😩😩😩
I do wonder why we can manifest good and bad things based on how we feel but never strong enough for death.
 
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InevitableDeath

InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
293
Death can be manifested easily enough. Psychopaths do it all the time.

Manifesting Death is only difficult if you're not a psychopath or if its ctb, where SI stands guard.

You gotta fool that fucker.
 
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