Crossroads

[Drago369]

I plan on ctb few days from now. I am unhappy, alone and I have lost the desire and will to live. I worry that my ctb will cause enormous pain to my family and smear my family's reputation. I'm confused on whether to live for my family or die to have peace ? ( Sorry about my English. It's not my first language)

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's a very tough decision. I'm sorry you are in this position. I guess only you can know though. I want to hold on till my Dad goes first but beyond that, I think I'll feel free enough to go. But for now at least, I feel I can. It's going to depend on whether you think you can keep going. Are there things you could do to make your life easier? At least for now?

 

[SVEN]

It's a rotten position to find yourself in, Drago, and ultimately only you will know what is best for you. If they know, to some extent, how wretched you feel now it may come down to whether it's better for them to endure months or years of concern for you, or cope with a short, sharp break.
Every good wish as you continue, one day at a time, to struggle on.

 

[Drago369]

It's a very tough decision. I'm sorry you are in this position. I guess only you can know though. I want to hold on till my Dad goes first but beyond that, I think I'll feel free enough to go. But for now at least, I feel I can. It's going to depend on whether you think you can keep going. Are there things you could do to make your life easier? At least for now?

I don't think I can hold on. Everyday is a nightmare plus I am suffering from severe health problems

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't think I can hold on. Everyday is a nightmare plus I am suffering from severe health problems

I'm so sorry. I don't think I could cope with ill health. Do your family know your wishes?

 

[Drago369]

I'm so sorry. I don't think I could cope with ill health. Do your family know your wishes?

They have no idea. I am currently suffering from mental disorder (OCD).

 

[Forever Sleep]

They have no idea. I am currently suffering from mental disorder (OCD).

I'm sorry. There are other OCD sufferers on here too. I hope you can at least find some sollace here till you decide what to do.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. There's an OCD thread here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ocd-thread.157537/ Maybe there are also others, you can use the search. May I ask what's your method?

 

[Drago369]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. There's an OCD thread here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ocd-thread.157537/ Maybe there are also others, you can use the search. May I ask what's your method?

I plan on burning lumped charcoals in my car (carbon monoxide poisoning)

 

[HighLowHigh]

I'm having the same thoughts as well, and it is so stressful for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you go through, it's so cruel how people have to suffer so unbearably in this existence. But anyway best wishes in whatever you decide.