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ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
219
so done
so done
can't do this anymore
i miss my siblings
my mom weighed me today and made me have extra calories
i can't gain more i just can't
the guilt is adding up
i want to leave so bad but i feel like i NEED to stay for all the people who say they need ME
confused
don't know what to do
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
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ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
219
I know, that's why I'm still here, mostly. It just huts so bad.
I just can't figure out how to keep living when three of them are already dead.
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,143
There are still 4 alive. Find the glass half full instead of empty. You can't change the fact that three of them have already passed away, but you can influence the lives of the four that are still alive.
 
ssaaahmo

ssaaahmo

Experienced
May 18, 2020
219
I know that. Two of them are a lot younger and we don't see each other much and the other two just enable my parents' behavior so I don't trust them anymore. We get along fine but I don't want them in my life right now.
i appreciate your encouragement
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,726
I hear your hurt and send compassion.

I'm also curious, how old are you that your mom has the right to weigh you and make you eat extra calories?
 

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