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[Arvayn]

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Hello, Amor! Haven't seen you in a while.

 

[amor.dor]

Hello Vampire Morning
Are you okay?

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[Arvayn]

129,803

It's quite good to hear that. I've been doing swell. Today is Saturday, my favorite day of the week.

 

[Xi-Xi]

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Yeah, I don't think it's worth it either, but I have been told to get him castrated too, so... Just following orders, as they say.

In a nutshell, I caught a rather extreme form of major depressive disorder, combined with intermittent mania and psychosis. The depression was so bad that I would essentially be a vegetable. Every day, I would do absolutely nothing. Just stare at the ceiling and not move from my bed, without even checking my phone. I had no energy to be suicidal, or to think, or do... literally anything.
On some days, I'd get abrupt psychotic breaks where I felt extremely energized and euphoric, and I'd be compelled to blindly follow some specific impulses. Those were the only days I really did anything.
Anyway...
Thanks to the MDD, I stopped eating and drinking altogether. If I drank, it would just be one or two gulps, and if I ate, it was always garbage snacks that didn't give my body any nutrients or calories, and just gave my stomach something to digest. You could refer to this as my "attempt".
Across the months of rotting, I experienced quite a few symptoms, but I'll skip over them and get to the point.
After a while, I was starved enough that my immune system stopped working. Somehow, I caught a bacterial disease. Without an immune system, this disease wrecked havoc on my body and eventually made its way into my blood. From the blood, it ended up inside my heart. I then experienced heart failure, and passed out from arrhythmia. While waiting for the ambulance to come, my heart croaked again and I had cardiac arrest, and I lost consciousness and life signs. The paramedics got there pretty quick and resuscitated me, though.

If you have any other "personal" questions about me, feel free to ask... I'm an open book.

Ah, if I may ask, what did death feel like?

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[amor.dor]

@Arvayn Why Saturday? I'm curious.

Hello XI-xi,morning

 

[Arvayn]

129,800

Ah, if I may ask, what did death feel like?

The actual dying process was surprisingly peaceful. I felt all of my feelings go away as I became less and less aware of the world, and the surroundings became quieter... It was replaced by a very warm, tranquil feeling. I also felt incredibly dizzy and light as a feather. I thought I would have been scared or panicked, but I really didn't mind it at all. In the last moments of consciousness, I saw some faint colors, but that's about it.
As for actually being dead... It doesn't feel like anything. It is a non-experience. "I" did not exist anymore, so I couldn't tell you what it's like. From my point of view, I literally just... teleported forwards in time. Instantly. One second I'm on the floor, the next I'm on my couch with medics at my bedside.

Quite frankly, it made me feel like being dead is overrated...

@Arvayn Why Saturday? I'm curious.

It's a weekend day, which means no responsibilities, and I also have Sunday off tomorrow, which means I can sleep whenever I want. Friday sucks because you get home tired and you have to gather your energy. Sunday sucks because Monday is constantly looming over you and is getting closer. Saturday? It's perfect.

 

[amor.dor]

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[Xi-Xi]

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Good morning Amor.

Ah, I see... So it is nonexistence...

I had a weird dream. I was watching Morimiya Middle School gameplay, so that could have influenced it. I was in the middle of a seminar or something, then the familiar hold alarm starts playing. But in the middle of the hold alarm, it distorts into "Warning! Warning! A gunman is in the Sciences department. For your safety, please hide in your designated safe room". So, we hid in the safe room. We had some fun with the computer science students, it was like an unusually serene break. Then, the shooter found us. They found the back door. Chaos ensues. I was instantly like, nope, I'm out of here. So, I instantly booked it for the door. I was the first one out, as I heard screaming and shots behind me. I tried to escape through the garbage chute, movie style, before the shooter comes from behind, covered in blood, before sirens happen, and a fade to black.
♡⑅*˖•. ·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙·̩̩̥͙*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ .•˖*⑅♡

The first dream I had before this, though, as I just remembered typing all of this, was also creepy. I was some kind of witch, like, one of those cartoony, anime witches, and my aunt was having one of her usual outbursts at me. I ran out of our childhood home, as she chased me. I ran to the city, and ran and ran, and ran. But no matter the spell I tried to cast, no matter how outlandish, she always caught up. It ended as she beat me.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

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[Xi-Xi]

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Hi SaS

 

[Arvayn]

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Ah, I see... So it is nonexistence...

I had a weird dream. I was watching Morimiya Middle School gameplay, so that could have influenced it. I was in the middle of a seminar or something, then the familiar hold alarm starts playing. But in the middle of the hold alarm, it distorts into "Warning! Warning! A gunman is in the Sciences department. For your safety, please hide in your designated safe room". So, we hid in the safe room. We had some fun with the computer science students, it was like an unusually serene break. Then, the shooter found us. They found the back door. Chaos ensues. I was instantly like, nope, I'm out of here. So, I instantly booked it for the door. I was the first one out, as I heard screaming and shots behind me. I tried to escape through the garbage chute, movie style, before the shooter comes from behind, covered in blood, before sirens happen, and a fade to black.
♡⑅*˖•. ·͙*̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩̥͙·̩̩̥͙*̩̩̥͙˚̩̥̩̥*̩̩͙‧͙ .•˖*⑅♡

The first dream I had before this, though, as I just remembered typing all of this, was also creepy. I was some kind of witch, like, one of those cartoony, anime witches, and my aunt was having one of her usual outbursts at me. I ran out of our childhood home, as she chased me. I ran to the city, and ran and ran, and ran. But no matter the spell I tried to cast, no matter how outlandish, she always caught up. It ended as she beat me.

Yep, it is... Or maybe my soul just didn't have time to be transported to the afterlife, who knows?

I love that game! I completed it fully. Sounds like you got isekai'd into it, lol. Also, geez, what a gruesome shooter... Doesn't he have the gun for a reason? Why get all that blood over yourself?

Poor witch Xi-Xi... Themes of helplessness in dreams are never fun. It's a good thing they're just dreams, though.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

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Hi SaS

Hi :)

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Damn i noticed you are all counting down :/

 

[Arvayn]

129,797

Team Chaos!

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

Aww but i like it when numbers go up

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[Arvayn]

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Seeing my cats walk around drugged after castration is hilarious to me. They're so confused, they have no idea what's going on... Even though they've been in this house for all their lives.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

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[Arvayn]

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Oh hey, we're on page 4800.

 

[Xi-Xi]

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Yep, it is... Or maybe my soul just didn't have time to be transported to the afterlife, who knows?

I love that game! I completed it fully. Sounds like you got isekai'd into it, lol. Also, geez, what a gruesome shooter... Doesn't he have the gun for a reason? Why get all that blood over yourself?

Poor witch Xi-Xi... Themes of helplessness in dreams are never fun. It's a good thing they're just dreams, though.

Yeah, after you shared it with me, I watched a let's play on the archive. I really like the game, actually. And since I was in a lower plane of the astral, I couldn't perceive entities that well, relatively speaking, so idk if it was blood or not.

I hate feeling helpless like that... Especially ones that bring up past traumas...

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Seeing my cats walk around drugged after castration is hilarious to me. They're so confused, they have no idea what's going on... Even though they've been in this house for all their lives.

I mean, if your nuts were chopped off, you'd feel estranged too, wouldn't you?

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[Arvayn]

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I mean, if your nuts were chopped off, you'd feel estranged too, wouldn't you?

I think I'd be too busy screaming and recoiling in pain.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

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That's why they get sedacted.

 

[Arvayn]

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I'm getting hallucinations again. I see this giant pale woman sleeping on the side of her face, using my living room table as a pillow. The rest of her body is like... phasing through the wall. I can't see it.

 

[SleeplessAndSad]

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I'm getting hallucinations again. I see this giant pale woman sleeping on the side of her face, using my living room table as a pillow. The rest of her body is like... phasing through the wall. I can't see it.

Are you ok?

 

[boddibo]

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