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R. A.

R. A.

If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
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Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
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I'm so, so, so sorry @EternalShore they have a lot of songs with religious-sounding titles, and I got that one confused with another. Here, I found the one I meant and listened to it all the way through before posting it. It only has one kinda bad word, but overall is very PG, I promise.
.·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.



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this one's nicer! :) thank you, The Morning star~ ^_^ and thank you for checking this ahead of time too~ ^_^
 
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updated my profile picture :)
 
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hey @qewpie you're still here
 
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yeah! nothing about how my body's feeling has changed so the hope is gone and my mind's been going into debt. i need something to happen for me soon or else I've gotta ctb bc i can't take this anymore
 
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R. A.

R. A.

If I must die, do not let them say I did not live.
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yeah! nothing about how my body's feeling has changed so the hope is gone and my mind's been going into debt. i need something to happen for me soon or else I've gotta ctb bc i can't take this anymore
this may be of no concern to you but cases have remitted after years...look up the youtuber PhysicsGirl
 
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this may be of no concern to you but cases have remitted after years...look up the youtuber PhysicsGirl
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oh I know about PhysicsGirl but I don't have anywhere near her level of healthcare access or her endurance and patience…and she's been declining recently apparently too :( so much luck is involved in recovery from this hell. and LDN gave me a balance disorder so i don't feel great about my chances
 
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yeah...she has a caregiver network and probably lot of money and it took her that long to get to that point of improvement...she apparently did air travel in the summer, i havent seen anything since but maybe that caused a setback...so sorry LDN did that; it's usually an effective or at least safe thing to try :/
 
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yeah...she has a caregiver network and probably lot of money and it took her that long to get to that point of improvement...she apparently did air travel in the summer, i havent seen anything since but maybe that caused a setback...so sorry LDN did that; it's usually an effective or at least safe thing to try :/
her father died so I think the stress of that contributed to the current decline. and she also broke her wrist recently too. it's really tragic. when i was healthy and saw her update video where she was doing better i told a friend "i could never lay in bed for that long i would rather die" so i guess i manifested this for me!!! when my illness just started i thought i could just rest up. but now it's so torturous i can't rest. yeah.

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🔑 LTO tape exists
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116,289 @qewpie I doubt it was manifested though, since many have thought "if bad x happens, I'm out", yet "bad x" doesn't always happen.

since even counting game can sometimes have unfortunate posts... my daydream of an "auto liker script" would be too finnicky, dw, I don't use auto-likers here or elsewhere.
 
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116,289 @qewpie I doubt it was manifested though, since many have thought "if bad x happens, I'm out", yet "bad x" doesn't always happen.

since even counting game can sometimes have unfortunate posts... my daydream of an "auto liker script" would be too finnicky, dw, I don't use auto-likers here or elsewhere.
then i suppose it's just my absolutely abysmal luck then :) either way i'm in a hole and it'll be insanely difficult to dig myself out

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then i suppose it's just my absolutely abysmal luck then :) either way i'm in a hole and it'll be insanely difficult to dig myself out

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hopefully the condition somehow resolves itself or similar.
 
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then i suppose it's just my absolutely abysmal luck then :) either way i'm in a hole and it'll be insanely difficult to dig myself out

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She has Long Covid, so that means you have it too, right?

Hydroxyzine has been used to treat Long Covid, and it pisses me off that it isn't being covered better.


(Start video at 7:40 ish)


 
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interesting... btw when I solved a cloudflare challenge on phpcodechecker ... and refreshed this site's "challenge"... it got auto solved.
I wonder whether people at cloudflare know about the site... after all, I believe they proxy the site, just like they do for so many websites (but probably don't log the terabytes of traffic, as it may irresponsibly log so many passwords and create a massive data breach risk)
 
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i noticed depending on my vpn location it sometimes autocompletes​
 
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R. A.

R. A.

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if i'm counting right...

1757217352859

...does this mean 10,446 people have counted down, and the rest up?

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She has Long Covid, so that means you have it too, right?

Hydroxyzine has been used to treat Long Covid, and it pisses me off that it isn't being covered better.


(Start video at 7:40 ish)



yeah - and there are several things that can help certain presentations, but trick is 1) there's no money in researching the repuroposing existing drugs for studies, cause patents, but mainly
2) LC is not just one thing; basically any of your organs getting fucked and/or it causing new onset disease are commonplace so what works for one presentation won't necessarily work for another (heart vs. lungs as a crude example).

ME-cluster stuff has been institutionally ignored for several decades already and is one of the hardest things to treat. LDN is one of few pharmaceuticals that tends to help people :/
 
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there are also non counting posts with text only... but yes, thousands of ppl must've counted down or so.... maybe ~5k counted down, and the ~5k counting up cancel out?
 
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