Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
- 936
Although I deeply feel that being dead would solve all of my life's problem...
Everything that I'm currently doing with my life is in contradiction to what I desire.
I'm going to work every day to earn an income.
Using that income to pay for rent, food, utilities, Etc.
Saving up whatever money I can with no real goal.
I'm making moves as if I am going to be doing this song and dance until im old enough to retire but in my heart I feel i'll be gone long before then. I don't have the will to live so I guess the instincts to survive is what animates my actions.
I hate everything about my life and I know i'm just being an ungrateful 1st world problem child but everything just keeps getting harder and harder to deal with.
Still, I guess deep down i'm scared of things getting worse so I fight to maintain what little I have so I can try to find some peace. If it wasn't for the fact that we sleep... I don't think I could exist in this world.
Everything that I'm currently doing with my life is in contradiction to what I desire.
I'm going to work every day to earn an income.
Using that income to pay for rent, food, utilities, Etc.
Saving up whatever money I can with no real goal.
I'm making moves as if I am going to be doing this song and dance until im old enough to retire but in my heart I feel i'll be gone long before then. I don't have the will to live so I guess the instincts to survive is what animates my actions.
I hate everything about my life and I know i'm just being an ungrateful 1st world problem child but everything just keeps getting harder and harder to deal with.
Still, I guess deep down i'm scared of things getting worse so I fight to maintain what little I have so I can try to find some peace. If it wasn't for the fact that we sleep... I don't think I could exist in this world.
