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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
I'm constantly very anxious about the smallest things I have to do...even trivial things, because of social phobia and generalized anxiety disorder. As soon as anything disrupts my hermit-like routine...

Are you the same?

Drugs and therapy dont help me
 
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idontknowwhatiam

Arcanist
Sep 10, 2025
449
Same
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Exhausting
 
Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
7,034
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LastNite

LastNite

waves
Mar 31, 2025
738
Yeh same. It's hell. Constantly worried about everything that *might* happen.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
The problem is that as soon as an event that makes us anxious is resolved and we feel calm, another one arrives 2 or 3 days later, and it's been like this endlessly for many years.
 
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Nolongerlive

Student
Feb 28, 2026
157
Yes, the same here. I think the brain is playing tricks on us.

I have to see a pysc for medication, giving up many stuff in my life, telling myself that is how the physical body works, etc etc etc
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Oui, pareil pour moi. Je crois que notre cerveau nous joue des tours.

Je dois consulter un psychiatre pour avoir des médicaments, renoncer à beaucoup de choses dans ma vie, me disant que c'est comme ça que fonctionne le corps, etc.
I hope.drugs.help.you
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,490
I used to have problems like that. A couple years ago something broke (cortisol overload) idk. Now it's just chronic numbness now.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
J'avais ce genre de problèmes avant. Il y a deux ans, quelque chose a déraillé (surcharge de cortisol), je ne sais pas. Maintenant, c'est juste un engourdissement chronique.
How do you do to be better?
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Big Anxiety is my life
 
lifeisadream

lifeisadream

One of life’s failures
Oct 3, 2022
202
Totally relate so understand just how crippling & painful it is. Leaving the house is difficult & go into full blown panic mode.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Yes but people say its lazy
 
current93

current93

Member
Jun 4, 2026
13
yes and ive stared taking benzos like perscrition ativan and alprazolam, and an rc called bromazloam to deal with it, it's the only thing that takes the anxiety away sadly. anxiety has ruined my life in so many ways. i think i hate anxiety a lot more than depression.
 
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restingplace

restingplace

Student
Mar 7, 2024
178
Similar.

Got generalised anxiety disorder, every moment that I'm not very distracted with something I feel incredibly stressed and overwhelmed. When there's more stressfull things I completely shut down which results in more stress.

Not on meds for anxiety specifically but it's meant to help a bit
 
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lifeisadream

lifeisadream

One of life’s failures
Oct 3, 2022
202
If anyone says it's lazy then they don't understand what living with anxiety or social phobia is actually like. I'm sorry if someone has said that to you or made you feel that way.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Si quelqu'un vous dit que c'est de la paresse, c'est qu'il ne comprend pas ce que c'est que de vivre avec de l'anxiété ou une phobie sociale. Je suis désolé(e) si quelqu'un vous a dit ça ou vous a fait vous sentir ainsi.
Yes its hurts
 
raincandy_v

raincandy_v

命に嫌われている。
May 25, 2026
18
I am constantly stressed out about everything it feels like. I overthink anyways.. so something akin to a grain of sand to someone else is a mountain falling to me.
 

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singingcrow

singingcrow

Experienced
Jul 7, 2024
202
yes

it feels horrible
 
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Bishop

Bishop

People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
513
Ouais. Ça, l'anxiété est toujours là pour moi. Ça fait vraiment chier.
 
NamelessEntity

NamelessEntity

My autism brings all the cat lore to the yard.
Jul 22, 2024
50
Yes, my brain is so loud with constant anxious thoughts all the time. I wish I could just take my head off and throw it.
 
Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
129
yes. i'm constantly scared and anxious to the point where i just can't function and i'm constantly miserable. i hate living like this. and no meds or anything ever work for it. i don't understand at all.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
Oui. Je suis constamment angoissée et effrayée, au point d'être paralysée et malheureuse en permanence. Je déteste vivre comme ça. Et aucun médicament, rien ne me soulage. Je ne comprends pas du tout.
Like me...
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,493
I hate doing things, even the simplest ones like going to appointments, grocery shopping, going to the pharmacy.