Completely deflated and broken by the system

[Natbee]

Today was absolutely the worst day, met my new public psychiatrist under community care and he was completely oblivious to my care or anything that has happened with me. I'm mental health has been declining for months.

I walked into the appointment and he just didn't know anything, he reduced my medication without knowing the risks or anything. I contacted Lifeline who reported me to the police. Literally had police dogs, multiple police out looking for me. Instead of putting me on an EEA, they let my friends take me up to hospital who came to my aid. I get to hospital and they just don't care. I told them I'm going home and they said that's fine.

It's like the Hospital doesn't care, I'm someone that's known to them and they just don't care they know that I have access to sodium nitrite I have access to a large sum of medication.

I am at the point in my life where I just don't have the fight any more.

I am over it all.
No one cares what I do with my life anymore
I feel so defeated I just want to disappear forever.

 

[Forever Sleep]

This sounds so horrible. I'm so sorry you didn't get the support you deserve. It's so stupid that people are told to reach out as the solution to all their problems- when this is the result.

 

[nitrogenous]

Today was absolutely the worst day, met my new public psychiatrist under community care and he was completely oblivious to my care or anything that has happened with me. I'm mental health has been declining for months.

I walked into the appointment and he just didn't know anything, he reduced my medication without knowing the risks or anything. I contacted Lifeline who reported me to the police. Literally had police dogs, multiple police out looking for me. Instead of putting me on an EEA, they let my friends take me up to hospital who came to my aid. I get to hospital and they just don't care. I told them I'm going home and they said that's fine.

It's like the Hospital doesn't care, I'm someone that's known to them and they just don't care they know that I have access to sodium nitrite I have access to a large sum of medication.

I am at the point in my life where I just don't have the fight any more.

I am over it all.
No one cares what I do with my life anymore
I feel so defeated I just want to disappear forever.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I'm in a similar boat, got confidentiality broken yesterday, brought to the ER through ambulance under the EEA, they're aware of my sodium nitrite and initially tried threatening me that I won't be able to go home unless someone comes to my home and disposes it for me but I still somehow manage to get discharged straight away. No community follow up, no change in anything, just nothing. It was a total waste of time and I know that from the beginning as even when I attempted a couple months ago, they still discharged me straight away. At this point, unless I'm truly dead, no one gives a shit. The system here is so shit, obvious lack of empathy, lack of care.

 

[Natbee]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I'm in a similar boat, got confidentiality broken yesterday, brought to the ER through ambulance under the EEA, they're aware of my sodium nitrite and initially tried threatening me that I won't be able to go home unless someone comes to my home and disposes it for me but I still somehow manage to get discharged straight away. No community follow up, no change in anything, just nothing. It was a total waste of time and I know that from the beginning as even when I attempted a couple months ago, they still discharged me straight away. At this point, unless I'm truly dead, no one gives a shit. The system here is so shit, obvious lack of empathy, lack of care.

The system is a joke. I am at prince Charles and they are so stupid with not understanding and being able to work with me in my care. I am in here with a medication change and they taking ages and no support given or therapy

 

[nitrogenous]

The system is a joke. I am at prince Charles and they are so stupid with not understanding and being able to work with me in my care. I am in here with a medication change and they taking ages and no support given or therapy

Ah yeah, been to the emergency there once and it was so useless. Got told by my former counsellor "Prince Charles is better than most public hospitals" and I found that to be bullshit, it's no different to any other public honestly. Lots of worker really don't care and won't do anything to help. They would be so strict and rigid without considering patient's preferences/trauma/experience etc. Any complains would be counted as "non-compliance" or being "manipulative and attention-seeking". How is this okay?

What's worse is that I've done the Suicide Prevention Training that those public workers did last year as part of my old job, and it was so bullshit. They were proud of how good they're doing on treating people with suicidality and I was just there sitting and questioning everything. And yes, when I was in the public ward last year they lowkey didn't even have any psychologist or groups. All they did was just medicating you (forcefully even if u are under the act) and hope somehow that will magically fix all your problems and make all your thoughts go away and never come back. Workers without lived experience in my opinion will just not get it. They don't understand the extent of our suicidality and desperation.