Venting Clinging to hollow hopes

[Sucsarius]

Despite having acessible dreams of a better future, I don't chase after them. Everything I've done in my life so far has been to make others proud and happy, never myself.

Now that I've reached a turning point, trying to live for my own expectations, it feels like I'm too insecure to try anything. Because if I fail, I know there will be nothing left holding me to this world. So I'm trapped in a constant loop of doing nothing, but existing in an empty shell.

I can still imagine a better future, but not the thought of reaching for it. I keep telling myself I'm just lazy, maybe because of survival instinct.

If anyone else goes through something similar, I'd like to know how you deal with it.

I'm terrible at expressing myself, I just hope this makes enough sense to explain this feeling of emptiness.

 

[justanotherfailure]

Don't be afraid of failure - failure is a necessary step to learn how to succeed. Failing is better than not trying at all, because if you never try you automatically have already failed. Don't live to please others - help others to find happiness as you search for it yourself. Life won't be flawless - it will be hard - but joining others on their journey to live a fulfilled life helps you find your purpose and happiness

Idk that probably made no sense tbh I'm trying to figure everything out myself but praying for you God bless