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grungy自殺

grungy自殺

Unloveable
Jan 9, 2024
161
Honestly, with all the joys and festivities that I'd be seeing people brag about all over social media and then raving about how much they're having the time of their lives spending time with their friends and families

I'm often the one that gets pretty much excluded away from the very friends that I wanted to be with close with and they get all the fun while I'm sitting and moping in my room

just laying on my bed, rotting.. crawling into a fetal position, hoping I'm dead within mins


Anyway, how do you guys feel about the holiday spirit right now?
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,206
I will also be bed rotting. Shit life.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,270
Cat Sleeping GIF by Pusheen
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
489
I don't get in the holiday spirit. Holidays suck. The only thing I find fascinating about xmas are the lights, and the deep colored purple lights mesmerize me for some reason. I can't stop staring at those purple lights.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,854
Bed rotting as well feeling worse than I thought I would...
 
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Dinnerwith6

Dinnerwith6

Silly me
Dec 11, 2025
21
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
 
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TorturedCerebrum

TorturedCerebrum

Member
Nov 13, 2025
11
Christmas hasn't brought anything emotionally positive for me in like 5+ years.
Its not necessarily been negative but just dull like most every other day unfortunately
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,537
Let's just get another one out of the way... A few days and it will be over.
 
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corpse

corpse

dead inside
Aug 31, 2025
235
I'm glad to be alone and be able to play Among Us all day without having to deal with my shitty family.
 
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ScaredCutter

ScaredCutter

put a red heart if u love espoir city
Oct 16, 2025
173
i love christmas, its the only holiday i look forward to seeing. ive always loved opening gifts and doing whatever with the stuff i have! i love it when games also set christmas themes on and have special events, i really enjoy them! i usually cant sleep when the next day is christmas because im always overjoyed for it, i think itll be cold tmrw for me but it usually has been super hot on christmas. honestly, i cant wait for it! i dont do any big celebrations, have a massive eating or some family gathering, i just find so much joy in presents and christmas!

Christmas Time GIF
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,009
I just don't see the torturous, dreadful abomination of existence as something to celebrate rather it's the opposite, existence to me just feels like the most terrible mistake that causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and every second existing beings are in agony.

It truly is horrific, this prison anti-suicide world truly is the most evil place and the fact that lif continues to be brought here truly is the most terrible, dreadful tragedy, I just always suffer so much from being imprisoned in this existence where dying painlessly is a crime, the horrific and endless suffering of existing really isn't something to celebrate, existing really is only suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, only non-existence could ever be positive to me, I see it as a punishment to exist.
 
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lapyttttt

Member
Nov 16, 2025
5
Laying on the floor. Looking at the social media posts of my past classmates and seeing them in distant lands, enjoying their lavish and carefree vacations. I do not have a strong desire to visit these places myself, but I'd exchange anything just to feel what they feel.
 
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OliverGarden

OliverGarden

Neverchild
Dec 22, 2025
26
Have a lot of abandonment trauma with Christmas, so that always comes up. But thankfully my family and some friends help me get through it... still very tough, though.
 
Andarna

Andarna

Back To The Sky
Sep 14, 2025
78
I'm just trying to focus on good food and ignoring everything else. I hope the next few days fly by.
 
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Xi-Xi

Xi-Xi

The Next Phantom Thief (Fae/Faer)
Nov 19, 2025
173
Missing my family
 
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Alpacachino

Alpacachino

Trying my best!
Nov 26, 2025
346
Pretty good. I'm eating well. Desserts and good food.Mothers visiting tomorrow.Can't complain.
 
LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

F♡ck Around And F♤nd Out
Jul 20, 2025
542
Grateful, I never would have imagined experiencing this again. I've been so busy that there's little time to reflect on it all. Living in the moment, my natural state, is slowly returning.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,600
I don't like it. I could say a lot more, but it all boils down to me not liking it.
 

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