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everydaythesame

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Nov 19, 2023
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I was due to go back to work last monday but couldnt face it so went on a massive vodka bender after sinking into a manic depression. im due back this monday instead. as its closer panic is setting in. dont know what to do for the best.
 
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everydaythesame

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update. just bought another 2 bottles of vodka out of utter despair. see what happens.
 
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Samira_Hura

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Jan 6, 2026
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I'm sorry you feel that way. When I drink, I have to do it secretly, without being seen.
 
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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
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I always take an interest in these work-dread threads as I feel them. It was really tough going back in this week but the shame of being a NEET made me suck it up.

If you can afford to, take a break whether that's a total break or utilising the company's sick pay (if that exists).

Working something you don't enjoy is agony.
 
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everydaythesame

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Nov 19, 2023
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I always take an interest in these work-dread threads as I feel them. It was really tough going back in this week but the shame of being a NEET made me suck it up.

If you can afford to, take a break whether that's a total break or utilising the company's sick pay (if that exists).

Working something you don't enjoy is agony.
Thank you, i have younger children too which i havent seen since christmas. the guilt and shame of wanting to die is just surreal.
 
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Jun 30, 2025
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Before I was let go, I was attempting to ctb pretty much every Sunday night. I would put a bag over my head and belt around my neck and try to get myself to pass out. I would try so hard to overcome si but every time I would stop just maybe seconds before its over. I know the feeling, its torturous :(
 
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dalemar

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Nov 20, 2025
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I am so sorry to hear you are going through this.
I don't know what to say.
I hope you can feel better anytime soon.
 
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everydaythesame

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Nov 19, 2023
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I am so sorry to hear you are going through this.
I don't know what to say.
I hope you can feel better anytime soon.
I love you. thanks
 
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