almostaghost
New Member
- Nov 7, 2025
- 2
so, I'm still capable of feeling joy but life really doesn't want me to be happy i guess. i have multiple chronic illnesses, went though 2 surgeries in the past 5 months because of them, (recovery's going bad) got into a motorcycle accident 3 days before new years and shortly after lost my health insurance (so now i have to rely on my country's shirty ass public health care service! yay). through the years, i had less and less energy to function and now this energy is almost zero. i haven't showered in days. I can't clean, can't cook, can't do nothing because I'm simply exhausted. im on meds but they're giving me really bad side effects. i really wish things would get better but damn. like, they were bad before yes but this last year absolutely drained me. i reallyyyyyy wish i could be selfish and stop thinking about all the grief I'd put my family and friends through. i really don't want to hurt them, but I'm getting more and more hurt every single day.
