Canada/BC - 25M.

[forgettenloner]

Hello everbody. I am new to this site, but have frequented many similar sites browsing the forums as a lurker.

I am here for two reasons primarily, I hope I am in the right place.

A) Methods.
So, incase I DO decide to go through with it. Here are my most likely methods:
1) Jumping off a high point.
2) Gas inhalation - probably going to be more difficult logistically. But I have access to a vehicle, so, i can set something up in there maybe?
3) Last resort - hanging. I am an anatomy student, and will leave the knot infront of my face/neck hopefully giving me the hangmans fracture, killing me instantly. Any other thoughts?


B) Hopefully, though, I find a friend here that might be able to help me.
I believe I was failed by my universities mental health resources, my friends, and in a way, my family. My depression was dismissed at 16, and at 25, I now lead a life i fucking despise. I hate everything about myself, and my shitty life. I will not delve into it in this post, but I really am not leaving anything behind. This is my last chance to change that.


Maybe as time goes on I will show my face on here too.

Thank you for reading.

-A.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Sorry to hear what you're going through. Please go thorugh the stickied threads, which has a Partners megathread and a Resources megathread discussing different methods.

The truth is if you want this to succeed you are going to have to do the work to figure out what works for your circumstances and preferences. Work as in time, effort researching, procuring materials, testing, etc.

I think the Off-Topic subforum is a great place to vent about life issues, and people are generally very compassionate and responsive if you need that.

Hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Sensei]

As for methods, it's very difficult to kill yourself with car exhausts, unless you have an old car. As already mentioned, many methods are discussed in this forum, so I recommend reading up.

As for friends, that won't be a problem. I doubt you'll ever find a forum where the members are as friendly and understanding as they are here. Welcome! :)

 

[Daffodil]

Trying to PM you but I can't I think because you don't have 5 posts yet.

 

[forgettenloner]

Trying to PM you but I can't I think because you don't have 5 posts yet.

oki i'll try to post around a bit and i'll pm you : )