
ctbcat
Yes, the everlasting contrast.
- Jul 14, 2023
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ironically, listening to bo burnham's 'kill yourself' made me think of this.
i've been really defeatist the past few months - super suicidal, but unable to come up with foolproof ways to commit the most recommended methodology. (hanging - i tried that but my noose got found TIED, building - i don't know anywhere open access that's high enough, and overdoses only tend to work with illegal or perscription drugs)
i imagine it would be painful and slow. but i might resort to it if the success odds are high enough?
sorry if this sounds stupid...
i think it's just useful for me to consider these sorts of things. one day i do really want to depart - i hate living in my head, and it's no one's problem but my own. when, i suppose, is the question, as well as 'how'.
i've been really defeatist the past few months - super suicidal, but unable to come up with foolproof ways to commit the most recommended methodology. (hanging - i tried that but my noose got found TIED, building - i don't know anywhere open access that's high enough, and overdoses only tend to work with illegal or perscription drugs)
i imagine it would be painful and slow. but i might resort to it if the success odds are high enough?
sorry if this sounds stupid...
i think it's just useful for me to consider these sorts of things. one day i do really want to depart - i hate living in my head, and it's no one's problem but my own. when, i suppose, is the question, as well as 'how'.