Venting Burnt out from everything

[AlmostNobody]

I am mostly burnt out from my job. I work a job where they refuse to hire a second person that worked there and I have to do it all by myself. You have to be fast to do it on time and I am just burnt out from all the stress. I've been doing this 3 years and I am already burnt out beyond words. The boss hates me because I can't help myself but resist dystopian and draconian measures and degradation of employees. I won't go in detail but the boss is by definition either sociopath or a psychopath. I don't have other options but to stay here until something relevant to me pops out but those chances are slim. Wish I could leave my country but then I would have to learn new language and I don't have patience like I used to, I have zero patience now. I used to like to do things but my brain feels like heavily burnt popcorn. I have developed severe anger issues and have trouble trying to not go off on people. I keep forgetting things because so much information goes through my brain daily. One time I went out with two different shoes on my feet. I try to do music like I used to, but I don't really care for it anymore. I used to love it, I would spend my whole day working the track. Now I wish I could be in that mode again but its not happening. I sit, open up the program in which I make music, try to start something and I end up not feeling anything and just go outside to smoke. That's my latest interest, smoking. I go near the woods and just smoke like 5 cigarettes and listen to music. That's only thing that makes me have some pleasant feeling, I can't move out, I can't go away from this shit country, I can't quit a terrible job and because of all of this I have no motivation for anything and see no future other than slavery and severe depression. Might as well stop it all soon. You guys burnt out too?

 

[sanction]

I am mostly burnt out from my job. I work a job where they refuse to hire a second person that worked there and I have to do it all by myself. You have to be fast to do it on time and I am just burnt out from all the stress. I've been doing this 3 years and I am already burnt out beyond words. The boss hates me because I can't help myself but resist dystopian and draconian measures and degradation of employees. I won't go in detail but the boss is by definition either sociopath or a psychopath. I don't have other options but to stay here until something relevant to me pops out but those chances are slim. Wish I could leave my country but then I would have to learn new language and I don't have patience like I used to, I have zero patience now. I used to like to do things but my brain feels like heavily burnt popcorn. I have developed severe anger issues and have trouble trying to not go off on people. I keep forgetting things because so much information goes through my brain daily. One time I went out with two different shoes on my feet. I try to do music like I used to, but I don't really care for it anymore. I used to love it, I would spend my whole day working the track. Now I wish I could be in that mode again but its not happening. I sit, open up the program in which I make music, try to start something and I end up not feeling anything and just go outside to smoke. That's my latest interest, smoking. I go near the woods and just smoke like 5 cigarettes and listen to music. That's only thing that makes me have some pleasant feeling, I can't move out, I can't go away from this shit country, I can't quit a terrible job and because of all of this I have no motivation for anything and see no future other than slavery and severe depression. Might as well stop it all soon. You guys burnt out too?

Also one of the main reasons I want to leave this world. Not doing 9 to 5 job for 40 years. It is pure bullshit that is forced on us

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I almost envy people whose bodies or minds completely snap under the pressure. Years ago I felt like I burnt out and then.... just kept going like a zombie. I think the world is full of billions of zombies working in a cleverly designed new form of slavery in which our souls are crushed and turned into money for the rich and powerful.

 

[sanction]

I almost envy people whose bodies or minds completely snap under the pressure. Years ago I felt like I burnt out and then.... just kept going like a zombie. I think the world is full of billions of zombies working in a cleverly designed new form of slavery in which our souls are crushed and turned into money for the rich and powerful.

What are your realistic thoughts (100% no bias) on this? In regards to this world is full of billions of zombies working like slaves

Because it feels like although most people are living like this. Probably 9 out of every 10 people

Just a quick estimate. If there are 8 billion people in this world. Lets say we take away 1 billion of them, because maybe they are children, retired seniors, or even wealthy people.

That leaves around 7 billion people, who are most likely normal working class people with regular full time jobs, stuck in it for 40 years.

How are there not WAY MORE people depressed and suicidal?? Shouldn't majority of the world population (BILLIONS OF PEOPLE) feel similar to us???

Because it doesn't seem like the case. Although 90% people live like this, but literally seems like only 20-30% people are depressed, with the rest of them feeling fine and normal

Especially many people may also experience stress from marriage and raising kids. I'm just confused how come majority of people are not depressed. Since most of us just work (slave) our entire lives away, just to simply get old and sick, and ultimately die in the end

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

What are your realistic thoughts (100% no bias) on this?

It's a mystery to me. I'm usually baffled by surveys in which the majority of people claim to not be constantly anxious and depressed. From what I can tell, they're in a fog, unwilling or unable to look around and see what's real. Also, I think a lot of people hide their true feelings and keep themselves constantly distracted. Usually in the rare case when someone tries to cheer me up, they end up looking a little scared and confused after I say out loud what they've been trying not to realize.

 

[sanction]

It's a mystery to me. I'm usually baffled by surveys in which the majority of people claim to not be constantly anxious and depressed. From what I can tell, they're in a fog, unwilling or unable to look around and see what's real. Also, I think a lot of people hide their true feelings and keep themselves constantly distracted. Usually in the rare case when someone tries to cheer me up, they end up looking a little scared and confused after I say out loud what they've been trying not to realize.

I guess they probably live in a delusion. Also deep inside, they're afraid to confront the unknown, and naturally just stay within their comfort zone. Then when things get tough, they immediately distract themselves with alcohol, entertainment, relationships, or even going to church and rely on religion.

Resulting in somewhat successful in hiding the raw truth from themselves, and remaining in some naive state for majority of their lives.

I believe its called mediocre lifestyle. But in the end, they're just lying to themselves