Defatigatis
And at my funeral, i didn't see you there...
- Aug 16, 2022
- 68
I live with my brother, and from time to time, i end up venting to him, even though i know that 90% of the time he never really listens to me and just seems to try to punish me indirectly and make me feel guilty for suffering. End up talking to this thing time to time because he's the only one that i can talk to in person, and with my human urge for face-to-face contact, i sometimes end up letting things slip.
But this time, it seems he has gone too far. We have different beliefs about what happens after death, ended up getting annoyed and asked him if he wanted me to draw it out my arguments. And then, told to me in extremely arrogant tone to die in my own way, and, according to him, i will be "wandering" like a lost spirit on earth and he "will not help to save me" from that "condition", even though i clearly demonstrate my consciousness, pain and what i believe i will do if my hypothesis of afterlife is right. Frankly, it seems like i'm talking to a wall that just tries to impose me his point of view. I just want to be understood, but it seems like asking a 3-year-old child to understand quantum physics.
I. just. wanted. to be emotionally embraced.
But this time, it seems he has gone too far. We have different beliefs about what happens after death, ended up getting annoyed and asked him if he wanted me to draw it out my arguments. And then, told to me in extremely arrogant tone to die in my own way, and, according to him, i will be "wandering" like a lost spirit on earth and he "will not help to save me" from that "condition", even though i clearly demonstrate my consciousness, pain and what i believe i will do if my hypothesis of afterlife is right. Frankly, it seems like i'm talking to a wall that just tries to impose me his point of view. I just want to be understood, but it seems like asking a 3-year-old child to understand quantum physics.
I. just. wanted. to be emotionally embraced.
