Venting Booze cravings

[bipolar22]

Having booze cravings. Alot. I jse benzodiazepine but they just dont make me happy and give me a break from this painful existence enough. Sadly since I puked blood im scared off the booze for life. Its very hard. Anyone the bullshit take a cold shower bulllshit they tell me but thsts nonsense. Wonder if it will ever go away. Been 3 years now. Non boozelife is boring. Its the boredom. Snd my life is just raw pain. Alao kindled to shit. I got on a 2 day xanax zone out inhave to taper for 3 days. It really is acurse. Und unfair. Only drank on and off for few years before this stomsch gsve out. Running out of coping. Im moody im bitter. I do my exercises but my life is dtill to shit I wanna go on s weekend bender snd just be on s cloud of euphoria just for a while. But I will never in thid life heve it again. Cause I csnt ill puke blood. Its like this evil nature dsw me loopholes the suffering snd put a lock on it. Real is a real witch for real

 

[SASU-KE]

I was drinking a lot until I realized that my life was just worse off because of it. I would walk in the heavy rain to buy alcohol if I was running low lol.

Don't drink. That's all I'll say. In the end I quit and I never looked back. Because I just know that I'm going to be worse off for it.


The initial stage of quitting will be tough. I used logic to combat it. I just told myself that I couldn't live like that and I gave it up cold turkey.It will get better as time goes on.

 

[bipolar22]

Not locking to live better or longer. im here to die. I gave it another chance for years but its just not working out. don't aim for a better life to stick around. I csnt drink becuse it will cause digestive agony is all. I gotta make it out ans I failed many times, stalled but I can get it done. Im certain. I can do this or ill keep trying til it works.