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meowmentous

meowmentous

trying to survive
Apr 7, 2025
52
Doing the smallest things wrong just makes me want to rip my hair out ❤️ this post is not being made in sound mind but I love being angry and pissed off and just becoming WORSE at something so MINUSCULE!!! That I event shouldn't be upset over, btw! I shouldn't, and I know and acknowledge this! But like idgaf anymore to I'm so fucking depressed haven't gotten majorly better in two weeks even though I usually have my ups and down but like. Idk. Like yeah I'm still almost always feeling some level of depressed but jesus christ I've been so low for much longer than I usually am. I thought I was getting better starting yesterday but I guess nottttt like yeah sorry I'm so depressed that the smallest thing sets me off idk. Just get this over with I wish my brain stopped hurting so much sometimes I wish I could just fucking do it already but I know I just can't. I just fucking can't. I could never bring myself so CTBing. But this pain hurts too much. I want to end it so bad. And I feel so bad! I'm an asshat of a person despite my friends trying to tell me that I'm not but how do they say that when I lashed out at them today over said tiny thing. Sorry for beginning to cry! I would tell them why I'm upset, but they'd rebut it and I'd be an idiot. I already am. Not like my bf asking what was wrong. Not me telling him it's fine, I was just stupid. So to them, even though they may never see this, I'm sorry for being just a horrible person. They all deserve a better person in their life than me. They shouldn't have to deal with my horrid emotions. I'm fucking ass, lol.
 
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meowmentous

meowmentous

trying to survive
Apr 7, 2025
52
Hey, don't beat yourself up.
I really shouldn't but it's hard to not feel like an asshat like I should be better and I want to be better! But it's sometimes so hard to be better when you're already worse. I just feel like such a shit friend, partner, and person in general sadly
 

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