Venting Being a lesbian in Syria 💀

[Vagheit]

I live in Syria in a strict Muslim family. God knows I tried to be like they want me to be. to like guys. to be religious. but it just doesn't work. My friends cut me off when I came out to them. And I tried to find a way to travel but it's just impossible when you are a Syrian let alone a poor Syrian. I can't even wear however I want because my stupid family forced me to wear hijab. I feel like I'm living in a cage. No friends No family No money No freedom No anything. I'm 23 years old now and when I think that my life is going to be like this for like 50 or 60 years I freak out. at this point I feel like the only way I can be truly free is to kill myself. and turns out even killing myself is hard. it's hard enough for the "normal" people to live here let alone an agnostic lesbian who suffers from mental health issues lol. I can't see a future even though I tried .. I studied a lot .. I tried every scholarship out there but no hope. I want to kill myself but I'm a pussy. what can I do? what can I do? I can't stop crying I wish I have never been born at all.

 

[Ashu]

This is so terrible, I feel so bad for you.

 

[metfan647]

Syria has taken a bit of a turn with it's new leadership. I'd do everything in your power to get out. Find like-minded folk to advise you.

 

[Seaghost]

I don't know how the internet access is filtered in your country and/or if you're using Tor. Maybe you can't access zu the linked website without Tor etc.

It's not much but maybe a start: https://guardiansgem.org

 

[amerie]

West Asian culture is truly beautiful but the heavy restrictions on how people (especially women) can express themselves are so depressing and I see why you want to CTB. I'm so sorry dear I hope you can find a way out soon there's nothing wrong with you it's them

 

[metfan647]

What about finding a male who is gay/asexual or whatever and get into an arrangement where you both feign love etc. If he could play the role well, he could approach your family for marriage?

Failing that, I know it's probably unthinkable at this point, but marrying a man who is more liberal and gives you some freedom and independence. Allows you to develop and even work. Make some money of your own and formate an exit plan.

 

[Vagheit]

I'd do everything in your power to get out

Believe me I tried everything but nothing is working out. Syrian passport is already fucked up and I don't even have the money

 

[hippiedeath]

Hope you find peace. I understand the pain of existence. Do whatever it takes. Welcome to SASU.

 

[Vagheit]

What about finding a male who is gay/asexual or whatever and get into an arrangement where you both feign love etc. If he could play the role well, he could approach your family for marriage?

There is a lot of sicko here who fraud queer women to lavender marriage than keep them as their wives so I won't trust any man here tbh

It's not much but maybe a start: https://guardiansgem.org

I just checked it out. There is nothing on their website says anything about helping people to get out of the country

 

[Seaghost]

And at the tab "get help" you can't contact them?

Or is it possible to go directly to an Embassy of another "free" country if there is something rest?

Im sorry you have to experience this :/. Dogmatic religion no mather which one or punishment against humans under the cape of culture or traditional stuff is just disgusting.

 

[Vagheit]

And at the tab "get help" you can't contact them?

Or is it possible to go directly to an Embassy of another "free" country if there is something rest?

Im sorry you have to experience this :/. Dogmatic religion no mather which one or punishment against humans under the cape of culture or traditional stuff is just disgusting.

I can contact them but tbh I'm kinda paranoid about it like what if it's a trap? As for embassies I don't think it's that easy

 

[Seaghost]

The instagram account of them don't really looks like a fake.....but yeah, from your point of view "safety first" is really neceassary.
Oh dear....what a clusterfuck this world can be.

 

[katara]

hopefully u can get out of there. You aren't a mistake, your countries government is the mistake. As a woman I wouldn't want to live in any Muslim country. Even outside of the Middle East they try to force their culture and religion on people. They are the bad ones, not you

 

[claracatchingthebus]

I live in Syria in a strict Muslim family. God knows I tried to be like they want me to be. to like guys. to be religious. but it just doesn't work. My friends cut me off when I came out to them. And I tried to find a way to travel but it's just impossible when you are a Syrian let alone a poor Syrian. I can't even wear however I want because my stupid family forced me to wear hijab. I feel like I'm living in a cage. No friends No family No money No freedom No anything. I'm 23 years old now and when I think that my life is going to be like this for like 50 or 60 years I freak out. at this point I feel like the only way I can be truly free is to kill myself. and turns out even killing myself is hard. it's hard enough for the "normal" people to live here let alone an agnostic lesbian who suffers from mental health issues lol. I can't see a future even though I tried .. I studied a lot .. I tried every scholarship out there but no hope. I want to kill myself but I'm a pussy. what can I do? what can I do? I can't stop crying I wish I have never been born at all.

please message me, there are organizations that sometimes help, none are listed here, i can't promise anything. Check your conversation inbox.