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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Saturday night I only slept a few hours.
Same Sunday. Even more disrupted.

Yesterday I emailed a friend about how dark things were for me. But that I was safe. Overall my message was dark.

I then passed out.

They emailed me a few times. Since I didn't answer they called 911

Did not try to call me. I'm waiting to find out why

Wellness check
Police first. Two men younger than me. Lives far more in control. Sort of embarrassing.
Ambulance next. Four more guys enter. I tried talking out of it but they force me to the hospital.
At least they let me sit in the ambulance instead of strapping me down.

1:30 am. Blood drawn. EKG. Vitals. Then I wait two hours to talk to a social worker. A delay. Then another hour passes. Finally and it's a video call. Another person much younger than me with everything put together in life. We talked for a while. I had to severely downplay things.

Afterward a doctor comes in. Looks in his 20s wtf. They agree to let me go.

Vitals one more time. Get dressed. Uber home.

Can't find my cat. Terrified she got out when they were coming in. She's smarter than that though. Find her.

Shower. Get dressed. On my way to work.

Unreal. Be very very careful what you tell people
 
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Jun 14, 2018
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Sorry this happen to you.
Sucks that your friend went ahead and done that on you. I take it your trust with them will be ruined because of it?
Hope you do not have to pay for the ambulance call out because that would suck.
Great that you found your kitty cat though.
Rest well after what you have gone through.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Sorry this happen to you.
Sucks that your friend went ahead and done that on you. I take it your trust with them will be ruined because of it?
Hope you do not have to pay for the ambulance call out because that would suck.
Great that you found your kitty cat though.
Rest well after what you have gone through.
I'm worried about the ambulance charge. We will see one day.

Well yeah I can't trust them in the same way. They are two time zones behind me. Why jump to 911? Seriously just fing call me.
 
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Jun 14, 2018
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Seems like people these days want to be someone's savior without letting them just vent their frustrations and thoughts.
It is a pity these days as there is almost no where but on this site that people can do it without judgement these days.
Lets just hope the bill is not to much as getting a bill like that is not nice at all.
 
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Jisatsu

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Jan 5, 2025
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This has happened to me two times and now I've learned to pick my friends a bit more wisely because not everyone understands.
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

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Jan 11, 2026
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Yeah. Thanks for sharing. I agree. No need to tell anyone. It's not like they will do anything but call the authorities.
I never care to share outside this forum. Friendship is about friendship. Work is about work. CTB discussions are part of SS. It's my exit and if I decide no one might even know why. I might say I was targeted and I would never CTB. Lying to make whoever cares feel better. Something like that.
 
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