Bad guy

[RealMe]

A bit self-defeating, if the end goal was to meet the person you were chatting with...

Yes, I was thinking the same

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Is he suing you?
Is this the only reason you planning on killing yourself.

I feel like I am the evil under the bed, I am not out as bi, told my gf I. Experiment with grindr and never met anyone however did not say I used someone else pic..lf I kill myself he can't sue me and my gf and family are spared that humiliation

 

[Definitelyworried]

I feel like I am the evil under the bed, I am not out as bi, told my gf I. Experiment with grindr and never met anyone however did not say I used someone else pic..lf I kill myself he can't sue me and my gf and family are spared that humiliation

But do you think he is going to sue you?

 

[Lrdhlpme]

But do you think he is going to sue you?

Yes 100 percent

 

[Definitelyworried]

Yes 100 percent

How do you know?
I live in the US so I can't give you much of an opinion about laws in ireland, but if you are sure about him suing, you might be right in attempting on a settlement.

 

[Ssname]

I don't want to come across like I'm telling you what to do or anyone but personally I don't think it is a massive deal. Like everyone said obviously not the best move you have made but it isn't like you were printing his photo in the paper just private messages.
Maybe you can mitigate it be getting a lawyer or mediator and having an official meeting with him to arrange something. In any case it would probably put you in a good spot if he does try to sue showing that you have tried to resolve the situation and showed remorse etc. I don't know really because I don't live in a litigious country but it makes sense to me.

 

[creatureoflight]

I feel like I am the evil under the bed, I am not out as bi, told my gf I. Experiment with grindr and never met anyone however did not say I used someone else pic..lf I kill myself he can't sue me and my gf and family are spared that humiliation

To me it would not be worth killing myself over

 

[Nzbeelover]

I understand the pressure and Anxiety.. guilt n regret that you may be feeling and it is easy to want to ctb over this incident n it's repreccussions it's a normal reaction when we get in these kinds of situations
But I do think you can get through this and still have a happy life

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Thank you for the kind words .. Sometimes u feel like I don't deserve to ctb.. not enough pain yet

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I've done some pretty shitty things in my life too, made more than one person try to kill themselves because of my shallowness and unfaithfulness when I've attempted monogamous online relationships, I've been hateful and cruel a few times in my life, been hated and told to kill myself as well by some I upset, fought with my mother in her final weeks as her health declined and made her long for death, though we basically reconciled. I've abandoned a lot of people. While I haven't done exactly as you have I've done lots of shitty things, and it's a big reason for my being here and having suicidal ideation. For what it's worth, you are not alone and I do hope you feel at least a bit better soon.

Edit: Also, sorry to hear about attempts being made on your life. In my last falling out/breakup, threats were made against my life, and a few people know my address, unfortunately. One recanted and said he wasn't going to do anything, but I'm not so sure about the other, this experience showed me a dark side of humans I didn't think existed on a personal level though it goes on around us every day. It's almost like I suffered and still suffer from an insidious solipsism and optimism bias.

 

[creatureoflight]

Thank you for the kind words .. Sometimes u feel like I don't deserve to ctb.. not enough pain yet

It has nothing to do with deserving it or not. It is for me just not enough of a reason. I honestly believe you are a good person-the world needs more of people like you and less rapists, murderers and other dickheads.

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Using his picture was pretty shitty of you, I admit. But you don't deserve a death sentence because of this and you feel remorse which makes you a good person. Where I live, we have big problems with people raping girls and not one of these people ever seems to feel remorse for what they did.
So you made an honest mistake. Don't beat yourself up about it!

Thank you for your honesty. I see what I did was truly horrible and because I did not feel anything while doing it I think I am evil... I hate myself now but I believe I feel this way because I was caught not because I did it, this alone proves the world is better without me. I would like to donate my organs in death tho so I can help someone in need

 

[RealMe]

I feel like I am the evil under the bed, I am not out as bi, told my gf I. Experiment with grindr and never met anyone however did not say I used someone else pic..lf I kill myself he can't sue me and my gf and family are spared that humiliation

Thank you for your honesty. I see what I did was truly horrible and because I did not feel anything while doing it I think I am evil... I hate myself now but I believe I feel this way because I was caught not because I did it, this alone proves the world is better without me. I would like to donate my organs in death tho so I can help someone in need

Bro, the fact that you are so fixated on this alone proves that you truly feel bad about it. Maybe you're right maybe you didn't feel bad when you first did it but you are definitely feeling bad now about it now. Give your brain a rest man. And maybe discuss these feelings with your gf rather than people on the internet

 

[RealMe]

Bro, the fact that you are so fixated on this alone proves that you truly feel bad about it. Maybe you're right maybe you didn't feel bad when you first did it but you are definitely feeling bad now about it now. Give your brain a rest man. And maybe discuss these feelings with your gf rather than people on the internet though obviously not the suicide thing but just your guilty feelings

 

[Lrdhlpme]

Bro, the fact that you are so fixated on this alone proves that you truly feel bad about it. Maybe you're right maybe you didn't feel bad when you first did it but you are definitely feeling bad now about it now. Give your brain a rest man. And maybe discuss these feelings with your gf rather than people on the internet

She won't be my gf after this and I don't want her to be, she is the most loving and amazing person ever and deserve better than me

 

[RealMe]

She won't be my gf after this and I don't want her to be, she is the most loving and amazing person ever and deserve better than me

How do you know that?

 

[Lrdhlpme]

How do you know that?

I know it in my heart.

 

[Ssname]

I know it in my heart.

I think that is a decision she should be allowed to make herself. Just my opinion though.

 

[No Future]

I know people that have done far, far worse and live very happy lives. Your remorse is the only evidence you need that you're not inherently evil.

Evil? No. Confused? Probably. You used a guys image to explore some internal shit you've not properly acknowledged outwardly. That doesn't make you evil, but the way that you did it was clumsy. I do somewhat empathize, though.

It will be forgotten, and you'll have an opportunity to grow, if you choose to.

 

[RealMe]

["No Future, post: 33522, member: 1580"]I know people that have done far, far worse and live very happy lives. Your remorse is the only evidence you need that you're not inherently evil.

Evil? No. Confused? Probably. You used a guys image to explore some internal shit you've not properly acknowledged outwardly. That doesn't make you evil, but the way that you did it was clumsy. I do somewhat empathize, though.

It will be forgotten, and you'll have an opportunity to grow, if you choose to.[/QUOTE]

Well put, No Future