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DeepInTheCreek

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Jun 28, 2025
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It's so surreal that this time I know I will die and finally end this insane life. I've been sweating and agitated all day, but also just kind of numb too. Thinking about my plan, what will happen after, the risks, etc is extremely tiring. The hours are dragging on until then though
 
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walliwalli

walliwalli

end of the road
Feb 14, 2026
115
best of luck, hope you find peace
 
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vascomorrow

Member
Feb 11, 2026
95
It's so surreal that this time I know I will die and finally end this insane life. I've been sweating and agitated all day, but also just kind of numb too. Thinking about my plan, what will happen after, the risks, etc is extremely tiring. The hours are dragging on until then though
What is your plan? If you dont mind sharing
 
Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
398
I wish I could do the same now. I hope you find the peace you seek. Take care 🤗
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,652
I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
bakenohana

bakenohana

ah...I want to disappear.
Feb 12, 2026
98
hope you find peace ❤️ good luck
 
doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
272
No matter what happens I hope you find some peace. :heart:
 
skeletontree

skeletontree

悲劇だな
Aug 6, 2023
35
I hope you find peace, no matter where your journey is taking you to :heart:
 
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DeepInTheCreek

Member
Jun 28, 2025
14
Update: I failed, survival instinct got the best of me and I walked 5 hours back home. I guess I gotta figure out something else now since I really cannot keep going
 
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JustBe

Member
Jan 12, 2026
17
Update: I failed, survival instinct got the best of me and I walked 5 hours back home. I guess I gotta figure out something else now since I really cannot keep going
Nature is cruel. It's so insanely hard to kill yourself if it's more than an impulsive 1-second decision...
Better luck next time I guess.
 
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DeepInTheCreek

Member
Jun 28, 2025
14
Nature is cruel. It's so insanely hard to kill yourself if it's more than an impulsive 1-second decision...
Better luck next time I guess.
I think the reason I failed is because I overestimated my ability to walk like 15 miles or so with gallons of water on me, so it tired me out fast to where I just wanted to go home and sleep killing my motivation. I still want to do my method but the only problem is that I just cannot for the life of me find an area nearby that is forested enough; too many farms.
 

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