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GLORY

GLORY

i'm sorry
Apr 4, 2023
1
for a very long time, i've been trying to sort out my feelings toward my abuser.
i'm not sure if anyone else can relate, but whenever i think of them there's nothing but conflicting thoughts in my mind.
i hate them; or at least, i'd like to think that. however, sometimes i find myself making excuses for their abuse.

to this day i still wonder why they're dear to me. did i make all up? were their actions justified? what if my mind tricked me into believing i'm a victim when in reality i'm not?
i wish i could stop these thoughts, but they've been haunting me for too long and i don't know how much more i can keep this up.

i feel dirty and faulty. everyone is on their side. my corpse is rotten and will never be fixed.
 
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Apr 7, 2023
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watch sam vaknin videos on narc abuse
 
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Trauma bonding
 
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