And, have you always been the same? If you're more selfish, do you feel bad about that and, do you do things to try to change? Do you think genetics influences it, as well as upbringing? Do you think it's easy to defy upbringing?
I'm a fairly selfish person in day to day living. Most of what I choose to do is for myself. I'm not so awful that I don't consider other people. I try to do my job well- for my employers/ colleagues as well as myself. I try not to be a nuissance to people. I'll do the odd kindness here and there but, I'm by no means generous towards my neighbours or community.
Family and friends are miles away now. I'm sort of around for them but, not that much. I sometimes wonder if the kindnesses I do show are more out of obligation- because I was raised to be polite.
My biggest self 'sacrifice' in a way is in staying alive- ironically. I think my suicide would devastate my Dad. So, I suppose it's selfless to put his needs in that regard above mine.
I think I have 'kind' genes. My parents and grandparents were very giving people. Kind people really so, I'm somewhat betraying my genes now being so isolated and self obsessed.
I used to be nicer! I suppose I want to take the easy option and blame life experiences for having become so self centred. I tend to wonder if selfish people get that way because they realise they are on their own- largely. If they don't have so much support from others, what choice have they but to put more effort into supporting themselves? There again, a spoilt child will maybe genuinely believe the world revolves around them.
I feel bad for how I act now but then, not enough to change it. I make small efforts now and then but then, I'm almost too unhappy to sustain them. I think you need to be pretty centred and ok in yourself in a way, to give so much to others and, to support them. Plus, the truly selfish part about it is that I maybe care less than I used to. I'm so resentful about having life itself maybe, the obligation to feel certain ways is just another annoyance.
How about you?
I'm a fairly selfish person in day to day living. Most of what I choose to do is for myself. I'm not so awful that I don't consider other people. I try to do my job well- for my employers/ colleagues as well as myself. I try not to be a nuissance to people. I'll do the odd kindness here and there but, I'm by no means generous towards my neighbours or community.
Family and friends are miles away now. I'm sort of around for them but, not that much. I sometimes wonder if the kindnesses I do show are more out of obligation- because I was raised to be polite.
My biggest self 'sacrifice' in a way is in staying alive- ironically. I think my suicide would devastate my Dad. So, I suppose it's selfless to put his needs in that regard above mine.
I think I have 'kind' genes. My parents and grandparents were very giving people. Kind people really so, I'm somewhat betraying my genes now being so isolated and self obsessed.
I used to be nicer! I suppose I want to take the easy option and blame life experiences for having become so self centred. I tend to wonder if selfish people get that way because they realise they are on their own- largely. If they don't have so much support from others, what choice have they but to put more effort into supporting themselves? There again, a spoilt child will maybe genuinely believe the world revolves around them.
I feel bad for how I act now but then, not enough to change it. I make small efforts now and then but then, I'm almost too unhappy to sustain them. I think you need to be pretty centred and ok in yourself in a way, to give so much to others and, to support them. Plus, the truly selfish part about it is that I maybe care less than I used to. I'm so resentful about having life itself maybe, the obligation to feel certain ways is just another annoyance.
How about you?
