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indefinitesleep

indefinitesleep

It is what it is
Jun 29, 2024
134
Wondering how people who have decided to ctb feel about their decision, do you feel at peace with knowing you wont exist any longer is there any doubts or anxious feelings about it? how certain are you this is what you want?
I personally know this is really my own escape, i have anhedonia since anti psychotics which makes life completely meaningless that aside tho the thought im going to ctb with sn soon makes me feel a little queasy and anxious when thinking about it.

Whats your thoughts?
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,447
Only 100% once at the end of the literal or figurative rope.

Until then we will typically go through waves of being ready and the next day wanting to give recovery and life another go.

I believe once someone is 100% they will find a way to CTB.
 
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dinosavr

dinosavr

and if i’m turning blue, please, don’t save me 🌛
Dec 14, 2023
695
I am more than sure that I want to die. I'm 100% fine with it and I consider it my only dream. And it definitely brings me peace. The only internal conflict I have going on in my mind at the moment is the question of my family and friends. I know they care and I know I'd ruin their lives for a few weeks/months. And I've been trying my whole life not to be an additional problem for anyone so I'd rather avoid it now too, of course.
But we'll see. I have mri this week and I'm hoping like crazy to be diagnosed with some kind of cancer please 😭
 
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Timothy7dff

Timothy7dff

Wizard
Apr 10, 2024
657
Yes. If you're not at 100%, you're going to have SI issues. I encourage people to be at 100% or pick another time.
 
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