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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
6,058
From acute to passive suicidal or vice versa. From making plans, to acting them out to regretting plans and aiming for recovery.
It is probably pretty individual.

Not many go my route. Posting daily in a suicide forum for years. I think for most people that would be too repetitive. But I see it as a challenge to come up with new thread ideas. And of course aiming for a high score. (of posts)

Last year I almost attempted. Or sort of attempted. I noticed if I keep going with college everything would repeat. I qutted 3 weeks ago and my mental health is still a mess. I am going through pain. I never regretted quitting. College was insanity. I would have collapsed sooner or later. I would have needed to go to a clinic again. And I was so often in the clinic they would not have welcomed me back with open arms.

I don't have something sophisticated to say but I am curious about the replies.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The one who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
227
Well I've only been here for about 3 months and my journey is just feeling shittier and shitter.
 
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Unbearable Mr. Bear

Unbearable Mr. Bear

Sometimes, all you need is a hug...
May 9, 2025
706
I've got from repressed misanthrope to mama bear in, what, a month? I count that as improving.
Well I've only been here for about 3 months and my journey is just feeling shittier and shitter.
Oh, that's sad to hear, doodler. Here, mama's got two full arms ready to crush you with love and attention. Come here, my sweetie, you deserve a rest from the pain. *open arms* 🧸
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

Who even am I?
Apr 22, 2025
218
I think it's pretty individual, yeah.

I definitely don't have stages, at least~ For me every moment is a dice roll, which is why I feel it has been hard to make any real progress in the long run.

I love periods of stability though (wherever on the live-die line that is). At least it gives me and the people around me something to work with!
 
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relapse

relapse

Member
Mar 8, 2025
78
I have less energy to be here the worse I feel. I don't feel like venting nor reading anyone's vents out of pure exhaustion. But then again that applies to everything else too... zero motivation to do anything
 
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avoid

avoid

Jul 31, 2023
397
Maybe there are groups of people that experience the same emotional rollercoasters, similar to how social media platforms cluster people into categories to recommend them new content. But for everyone to go through the same stages on SS... I can think of only one thing.
  1. Guests: you discover Sanctioned Suicide and start to lurk.
  2. Waitlisted member: you registered yourself and wait for approval.
  3. Approved member: a moderator has approved your registration.
  4. "Unlocked" member: get access to chat and the built-in search engine.
And only a fraction enters the fifth stage.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,146
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
753
People are definitely different. But this is one thing where I think I might actually have something in common with people here.

I lurked

Learned how difficult it is to CTB and methods I had never heard of that seem so complicated.

Avoided joining because I am not social

Finally joined to at least be around some people who are having the experience like I am of just not having a good way out for whatever reason and trying to do their best under their particular circumstances. While still wishing they were dead
 
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QuinineGuy

QuinineGuy

Member
May 30, 2025
26
I think the ups and downs are just part of life. Some days we are good. Some days we are not good. Today, I'm actually feeling ok. Reminds me a bit of that quote from Shawshank Redemption, "you either get busy living, or get busy dying."
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,723
I lurked on the site when it first started and then joined a few months later. I knew I wasn't quite ready to take the next step, so I left for a year and a half, and then came back when my situation worsened. I'm not really sure what I'm doing now. Just waiting to snap and finally do it.
 
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