Are there any here who dream of death but lack the courage to commit suicide?

[Alexandra_]

How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?

 

[endboss]

My days are endless, too.

 

[SASU-KE]

I am destined to be here a long time seeing as how I just cannot take my own life. Too much stigma in my society and I just can't do that to my family. I'm just praying for a quick end to my life through natural causes.

To be honest Depressed people won't last long anyway imo.It takes a severe toll on the body, a lot of stress. So we will have a much shorter life than most others.That's something to look forward to, I guess.

 

[PanaxMan]

How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?

I'm currently attempting right now but I've had more dreams of death by random happenstance. It's freaky.

 

[Alexandra_]

I am destined to be here a long time seeing as how I just cannot take my own life. Too much stigma in my society and I just can't do that to my family. I'm just praying for a quick end to my life through natural causes.

To be honest Depressed people won't last long anyway imo.It takes a severe toll on the body, a lot of stress. So we will have a much shorter life than most others.That's something to look forward to, I guess.

I've read that severe depression reduces life expectancy by 7-15 years. But I've also heard of people who have had depression their entire lives and still live quite a long time

 

[overthrone]

yep, every day.
i talked about this in a previous thread, but it's somewhat easier for me to drown myself in suicidal thoughts than think of anything else that could be a reason for me to ctb. it's a weird concept.

 

[m3nhera]

How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?

THIS IS SO ME DON'T WORRY YOU'RE NOT A COWARD OR ANYTHING. Sorry I just always feel like one for not doing it yet, and this post made me feel seen. I'm sorry you're trapped. We shouldn't blame ourselves for biological and circumstantial things. I see death as the light at the end of the tunnel, the reward you get once you've finally suffered enough. But it's so dark in here right now.

 

[Defenestration]

Yes, dying in my sleep is my wildest dream without feeling a thing... When I wake up in the morning I'm disgusted... It's not a question of courage for me, it's that I hesitate because my mother is sick and I don't have a good place to jump. I'm afraid of suffocating if I take my SN

 

[mistake22]

How do you cope? How do you console yourself?
Some might say that if you dream of dying, you can kill yourself. But that's not entirely true. Everyone is different - some are kinder, some are smarter, and some have an iron will. I understand that we will all die sooner or later. And that's the only thing that makes me happy. But every second is a short life. For people with severe depression, time passes much more slowly. Many say that life is short. But this is a subjective opinion. I don't know if I will ever be able to kill myself. Or if I will be able to resort to assisted suicide. Maybe I will get a fatal illness. Or someone will kill me, accidentally or on purpose. I only know that I am trapped. Life is a curse, and death is a real gift. I don't understand why relatives like mine reproduce at all? They are not fit to be parents. I was born for an incomprehensible reason. And this is the result. My foolish mother condemned me to unbearable suffering for the rest of my life. I also see that many people are afraid, but still decide to take the final step; I admire them. I want all suffering on this planet to disappear, but I understand that will be a long time coming. Many of us endure terrible torment every day. Is this a right world, where the living envy the dead?

I just ignore it

 

[Samira_Hura]

Suicide scares me because I don't know how it will happen, if I'll succeed, or if I'll make the situation as bad as possible. If I don't commit suicide and wait for natural death, I imagine something even worse than suicide, or prolonged paralysis or Alzheimer's. I'm trapped. Life is a trap.
I wish I had never been born and had never known this horrible world.

 

[Defenestration]

I'm afraid of being reborn in another life. Afraid of hell... or especially afraid of failing and being severely disabled.

 

[angelhopes]

I just cry and wishes that I never wake up for the next day

 

[Defenestration]

Je pleure et je souhaite ne jamais me réveiller le lendemain.

Bg big dream for me and wake up every day