Discussion Are there any Catholics on here?

[dying_kwik2000]

I just want to know if there are any faithful or practicing Catholics here and if prayer has helped you with thoughs of suicide. How do you reconcile your faith with wanting and planning to end your life?

 

[TheHolySword]

I was raised catholic. I haven't been for a long time. I tried finding god again. The guilt of death prevented me from reestablishing any foothold of faith. I abandoned god. I still pray for him to watch over my family, for my mistakes were not theirs

 

[itsgone2]

I can't reconcile it. Can't stop the thoughts either.

I know it's wrong. But i also don't understand how the world is so cruel. I can't help my thoughts

 

[glided~hydrangea]

I just want to know if there are any faithful or practicing Catholics here and if prayer has helped you with thoughs of suicide. How do you reconcile your faith with wanting and planning to end your life?

Hey. This is a few months later, but I would consider myself devoutly Catholic and have been my entire life. I still believe in everything I've been taught, but this past year and a half my faith has really seemed to dwindle, especially after my several severe SA's. I've felt farther from God than I ever have before, and I really can't stop these suicidal tendencies and strong ideations I have, even though it goes against everything I believe in and have committed my life to. I've already attempted three times, but honestly, I feel like deep down the only thing really stopping me is the ingrained fear that I'll go to hell. That honestly really scares me. I've underwent a lot of pain in this life, although I'm still young, and I just don't want to suffer further in the afterlife—as selfish as it is. It's so strange it's like I'm battling so many things at once. I honestly don't know what to do anymore, that's why I joined this site to hopefully gain some better insight. I hope you were able to relate at least a little to my situation. I hope you find some peace, bro.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I am SOMETIMES devoutly Catholic. I've converted twice during manic episodes.

My thinking is pretty systematic. There's no squaring suicide with the faith. Sorry, but it's a mortal sin.

If Catholicism is true, wouldn't that be enough for you to live on? Heaven at the end would dwarf your unhappy life.

Now I don't believe. I think angels and demons flying around everywhere, God writing a book, and all the animals riding on the Ark are absurd.

You're just gonna have to make up your mind. Suicide vs. "dying to sin and living for Christ." Can't have both.

 

[itsgone2]

If Catholicism is true, wouldn't that be enough for you to live on? Heaven at the end would dwarf your unhappy life.

I'm having a really difficult time with this, as a Catholic. Like, why should I need to suffer this much? Or at all?
Let's say there is a heaven. My father died in his early 40s. Is he looking down and witnessing my life? Does he see me crying, bed rotting, screaming for help? Does he see all those numerous dark moments? If so, how could that be heaven? Seems like he'd share my pain, in some ways worse being a parent that can't help.
Heaven could potentially never be paradise. Even if you weren't a parent you'd still see all the horrors of daily life around the globe.
So does something exist outside our realm or no? It scares me either way.

 

[madameviolette]

I am SOMETIMES devoutly Catholic. I've converted twice during manic episodes.

My thinking is pretty systematic. There's no squaring suicide with the faith. Sorry, but it's a mortal sin.

If Catholicism is true, wouldn't that be enough for you to live on? Heaven at the end would dwarf your unhappy life.

Now I don't believe. I think angels and demons flying around everywhere, God writing a book, and all the animals riding on the Ark are absurd.

You're just gonna have to make up your mind. Suicide vs. "dying to sin and living for Christ." Can't have both.

I thought angels/demons, god writing a book, the flood, and the ark were all allegories

(I'm not Catholic it was just my understanding)

 

[itsgone2]

I thought angels/demons, god writing a book, the flood, and the ark were all allegories

(I'm not Catholic it was just my understanding)

This is tough. Many things are considered just that. But it's confusing tbh. And requires deep understanding of Catholic studies. Not easy.
It's far easier with the teachings of Jesus because he presents his stories as parables more than facts
Idk I'm no theologian but I feel that I have been close to God at various points in my life and I hate that I'm so far afield now. It scares me

 

[madameviolette]

This is tough. Many things are considered just that. But it's confusing tbh. And requires deep understanding of Catholic studies. Not easy.
It's far easier with the teachings of Jesus because he presents his stories as parables more than facts
Idk I'm no theologian but I feel that I have been close to God at various points in my life and I hate that I'm so far afield now. It scares me

Same. I'm not Catholic but I could feel that thing called god in my life before. But right now it seems so so far

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I thought angels/demons, god writing a book, the flood, and the ark were all allegories

No, they're just...regular . "Fundamentalist" Christianity is just Christianity. That's embarrassing, so people pretend that these things are mysterious and impart some deep meaning despite being bogus.

 

[glided~hydrangea]

I thought angels/demons, god writing a book, the flood, and the ark were all allegories

(I'm not Catholic it was just my understanding)

No, not in Catholic faith, or even just the wider Christianity in general. God didn't write the Bible, many people did throughout the years (centuries upon centuries) and when it was done it was all put together. The flood, Noah's ark, etc. are all believed to be true and and real, and genuine parts of the world's history. Not forcing or anything, just wanted to perhaps help clear up a bit of confusion! ^^ I hope you all find some peace my bros

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I'm a cradle Catholic (born and raised Catholic), but these days, I'm more agnostic, mostly using religion to fulfill my own goals. Prayer hasn't really helped me with any CTB ideations other than distracting me for a second. As for the whole "you go to Hell if you CTB" beliefs, I just say "fuck it, we ball"

Plus, I'm lowkey convinced that God wants me to CTB—not in a malicious way, but in a "this is my plan for you so please follow it" way

 

[badatparties]

Never Christian here, all three Abrahamic religions look like a big load of shite to me.

 

[Realog11]

I just want to know if there are any faithful or practicing Catholics here and if prayer has helped you with thoughs of suicide. How do you reconcile your faith with wanting and planning to end your life?

Yeah I'm a catholic I don't go to chapel or church I did in the past both actually lol though