Discussion Anyone kind of Hoping to get the Coronavirus to ctb?

[CatchTheBus]

I kind of want to catch it so that I can make it look like I died of Covid19 instead of SN. I'm pretty sure that's unrealistic, but I don't want my family to know I ctb. I went through months in an IOP and I was discharged because I was "better." Ctb would just disappoint my family even more.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Me. But I'm not too old to die from covid-19

 

[Seagirl]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

Been researching since Jan. It's an absolutely agonising death. They shd be injecting nembutol. Its wicked not to. Stay away from people this is weeks of agony.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

I'm hoping to get it but I don't want to pass it in to others
I've got elderly relatives who are carrying on pretty much as normal, I think they perhaps just want to die cos they've had enough.


I can see tons of bus catching by people forced to isolate
We've got no sport gigs and other distractions its just unbearable

 

[Secrets1]

Save my family the pain of suicide and gtho of this world? FUCK YES. 48 hours of pain can't compare to the rest

 

[Help_Me]

I was actually thinking about that, but it seems like everything will end up in vain a d I will stay alive, but probably with some serious damage..(

 

[Lastravel]

Not really, chance of surviving are pretty high, and suffering for nothing doesn't tell me anything. I would rather think of taking advantage of this period to ctb and let my family think that it has something to do with covid ... If only I hadn't a caring family I wouldn't torture my self as much as now.

 

[Berlin76]

I dont have the luck to catch the virus fml

 

[Hel]

Would be perfect. I have the health condition which could make me die if I got it. I've been tree years aanting to die but can't kill myself because I wanted a death which could be concealed as natural. This is my moment. I wish I could get it, it's the best opportunity of my life...To die

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

My lungs are shit right now due to allergies. I'm not 100% that it's corona either. It's tempting to take the sn letting people think it was the corona but if I am sick I'll let it get worse before I take it

 

[Sotired_]

I get ill with all sorts of infections often. I've been tempted to just let them do whatever and not treat them in the hope I'd die. But the pain gets too much, and I've been told I wouldn't be let die.

With corona there is just such an outside chance I'd die if I even got it, with being fairly young and although repeated infections I don't have an underlying cause that makes me more vulnerable.

Of course whatever illness I get or there are concerns I might have I always hope it'll mean I don't have to make it happen myself. For example if I were to get an illness that would be terminal without treatment I'd do anything I could not to get treated.

 

[Darkdreamer001]

I kind of want to catch it so that I can make it look like I died of Covid19 instead of SN. I'm pretty sure that's unrealistic, but I don't want my family to know I ctb. I went through months in an IOP and I was discharged because I was "better." Ctb would just disappoint my family even more.

That's one of the positive things about catching the virus is that people wouldn't know if you intentionally or unintentionally got it but the bad thing is potentially spreading it.

My lungs are shit right now due to allergies. I'm not 100% that it's corona either. It's tempting to take the sn letting people think it was the corona but if I am sick I'll let it get worse before I take it

A part of me wants you to get well just in case it is the corona virus so you don't get your loved ones sick and I hate that we're suffering.

Would be perfect. I have the health condition which could make me die if I got it. I've been tree years aanting to die but can't kill myself because I wanted a death which could be concealed as natural. This is my moment. I wish I could get it, it's the best opportunity of my life...To die

I want to leave this place, I admit I'm scared also. I'm scared of committing suicide sometimes because I feel like I'll just mess up and make things worse and live. Also I don't know if the afterlife is real or not. I figured this virus would be an opportunity to leave this place but I hear that even you get it that you'll probably survive it.

I dont have the luck to catch the virus fml

People have it and not know it

Not really, chance of surviving are pretty high, and suffering for nothing doesn't tell me anything. I would rather think of taking advantage of this period to ctb and let my family think that it has something to do with covid ... If only I hadn't a caring family I wouldn't torture my self as much as now.

You have a caring family, that's good. Many of us would love to have that. Why would you leave them?

I was actually thinking about that, but it seems like everything will end up in vain a d I will stay alive, but probably with some serious damage..(

Sounds like my luck...

 

[oxymoron]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

How old are you?

 

[TheTraveller]

I"m currently in quarantine my lungs are sore, can't breath like usual, headaches, cough.

I'm not getting tested, Im already immune comprised. I'm leaving it; maybe take some NSAIDs?

My apprehension is that the medical system will get me, I've had enough of those hacks. They will make sure that your life is awful until the very end.

I'm hoping??? Maybe it will make me take action and then I won't have to feel guilty about suicide?

 

[terry_a_davis]

I don't want to die from it'd be a miserable drawn out death.
WHO have announced the virus spread is 'accelerating'. It took 67 days to infect the first 100,000, eleven more days to infect another 100,000, and just four days to infect another 100,000.

 

[TheTraveller]

I don't want to die from it'd be a miserable drawn out death.
WHO have announced the virus spread is 'accelerating'. It took 67 days to infect the first 100,000, eleven more days to infect another 100,000, and just four days to infect another 100,000.

If maybe I could die by myself and not infect others I would consider it but I have a deep fear that "the Meds" will get me and take all me dignity and choice away.

 

[artificialpasta]

That's a horrible thing to die of. Your last few weeks will be traumatic as your lungs continue to shrink irreparably. It becomes more and more painful just to breathe.

It's also quite selfish, because you become an agent of the pandemic.

 

[Darkdreamer001]

How old are you?

35

That's a horrible thing to die of. Your last few weeks will be traumatic as your lungs continue to shrink irreparably. It becomes more and more painful just to breathe.

It's also quite selfish, because you become an agent of the pandemic.

I am selfish...who isn't?

 

[artificialpasta]

I am selfish...who isn't?

Selfishness isn't wrong unless it harms other people. One person could indirectly infect and cause suffering for thousands.

 

[Hel]

Yes, that's the thing, I don't want anyone in my house to get it. And if I started to feel it, I wouldn't want to tell anyone because then I'd be treated and saved. I wish I was living alone. It would be easier.

 

[iglooblimp]

I wouldn't want to spread it to others.
I'd self-quarantine, and die. I don't care about the pain, because if I ctb I know I'll disappoint my family, so it's better to endure it and have them know that it was because of the virus, at least.

 

[Forever Wandering]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

Corona virus death is undignified. I suggest that you look into Peaceful methods.

 

[Jumper Geo]

It would be okay with me. Humanity deserves this virus. Humans have dominated, murdered other species and destroyed this planet in a variety of ways. I hope it wipes them all out, but it won't.

Can you imagine if one of the super powers decided to launch a biological weapon, a disease where no one survived and instead of releasing it in one Country they released it in every Country at the same time, the World would end within a few months. Who needs nuclear bombs.

I think the most potent disease is Ebola, now if they tampered with this in a laboratory I don't think we would stand a chance.

https://www.pacificatrocities.org/book-seeking-justice-for-biological-warfare-victims-of-unit731.html?gclid=EAIaIQobChMImJ3d1bC16AIVhvhRCh3GywUlEAAYASAAEgJsB_D_BwE

 

[SugarbushMtn]

You wont die from it, very rare.

 

[Squiddy]

I would rather have a meteor hit me than get coronavirus

 

[Darkdreamer001]

Selfishness isn't wrong unless it harms other people. One person could indirectly infect and cause suffering for thousands.

True and I said in the above statements that I wrote that I don't want to get others sick. Just because I want to ctb means that I have to mess things up for others. I'm still selfish because I want end my pain. FYI, I'm alone....
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I would rather have a meteor hit me than get coronavirus

That'll surely take you out of your misery.

Corona virus death is undignified. I suggest that you look into Peaceful methods.

Yeah, I wanted nembutal but most sellers are scammers.

Can you imagine if one of the super powers decided to launch a biological weapon, a disease where no one survived and instead of releasing it in one Country they released it in every Country at the same time, the World would end within a few months. Who needs nuclear bombs.

I think the most potent disease is Ebola, now if they tampered with this in a laboratory I don't think we would stand a chance.

https://www.pacificatrocities.org/book-seeking-justice-for-biological-warfare-victims-of-unit731.html?gclid=EAIaIQobChMImJ3d1bC16AIVhvhRCh3GywUlEAAYASAAEgJsB_D_BwE

I'm hearing a rumor that China is back in business but slowly. Now the avian flu may be making a comeback. Geesh... can't win for loosing...hopefully it won't get out-of-hand!

I wouldn't want to spread it to others.
I'd self-quarantine, and die. I don't care about the pain, because if I ctb I know I'll disappoint my family, so it's better to endure it and have them know that it was because of the virus, at least.

Exactly, I would self quarantine if had I this sickness but I don't. Unlike you I'm a whimp for pain...I really do want to ctb but I'd like to do it the way I want to, peacefully.

Yes, that's the thing, I don't want anyone in my house to get it. And if I started to feel it, I wouldn't want to tell anyone because then I'd be treated and saved. I wish I was living alone. It would be easier.

Since you live with your family, I think it's good that you don't have it, and I'm glad that your family cares about you enough to save your life.

 

[Oyoy]

I don't want to infect anyone else.

 

[Buffy5120]

I dont have the luck to catch the virus fml

Why?

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i have still hope because i'm in italy i hope i'll die from it

 

[Buffy5120]

i have still hope because i'm in italy i hope i'll die from it

So now you guys think its deadly thought you guys said it wasn't im confused?