Just feel like they aren't cut out for this? I didn't ask to be born but my Dad doesn't fail to vocally remind me that I am a loser. I have Schizophrenia, a severe mental illness, and I know that will just disorganize my thinking so much that I can't even function. Tired of being the butt of jokes and just being on the receiving end of the worst of people. While on the opposite side my brother was a D1 college football athlete and even played in the NFL while I was the worst on the team. This just goes to show how brutally unfair life is. No matter how hard I fight the result is always the same. I'll be at ease when I finally catch the bus.
Gosh, I'm sorry for the mental illness. That's a super tough break. Also sorry that your father isn't supportive.
Agree. You said it best: not cut out for this. Not even close tbh.
I think the reason I've made so many mistakes is that I've just never cared. But now those have caught up with me.
Also recently concerned about being autistic. Never thought about it until so many here mentioned it. So many challenges in life. I didn't do well with them and just want to fade away sooo badly.
I think the reason I've made so many mistakes is that I've just never cared. But now those have caught up with me.
Also recently concerned about being autistic. Never thought about it until so many here mentioned it. So many challenges in life. I didn't do well with them and just want to fade away sooo badly.
I feel sorry for your situation and wish you peace.
I feel sorry for your situation and wish you peace.
Irisse
Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
- Sep 8, 2025
- 179
I feel the same way, I'm definitely not cut out for this BS. My parents were good people but I was raised for a world that never existed, one where everyone is kind to each other. I'm sorry that you have schizophrenia and that you feel inferior to your brother, but you're not a loser, you couldn't have chosen this. I definitely relate as I've seen first hand how unfair life is and I also feel like the result is always the same no matter what I do.
PaxAmericaX
Member
- Sep 27, 2025
- 18
For me 'yes' the dragging on is hardest. Like knowing i have to wake tomorrow and go through it again really grinds me down. I feel my soul being destroyed.
rainatthebusstop
Member
- Aug 20, 2025
- 55
Classic Dad maneuver, really.
But yeah I feel you buddy. I wish it was as easy as falling asleep and never waking up again
Cosmophobic
Student
- Aug 10, 2025
- 136
Yes but it just keeps happening. Like a movie that won't end. *i'm looking at you Return of the King* 
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,111
I really am always so tired of suffering, all I want is to be permanently free from this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake but of course more than anything I just wish I never suffered.
I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me only never suffering again is desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, to me existence really is an abomination, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem.
I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me only never suffering again is desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, to me existence really is an abomination, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem.
58Alice85
Autogynephile
- Aug 31, 2025
- 122
I never have been officially diagnosed but i often hear voices.
I am deeply religious and truly believe God is loving and generous, simalteniously i hear voices
constantly cursing the name of Christ, saying i have to 'stop being afraid of God', saying God is the cause of all my suffering
it is like Satan is literally in my head
and then i get this smug smile, that by continuing to believe and worshipping God i am further humiliating this voice
I am deeply religious and truly believe God is loving and generous, simalteniously i hear voices
constantly cursing the name of Christ, saying i have to 'stop being afraid of God', saying God is the cause of all my suffering
it is like Satan is literally in my head
and then i get this smug smile, that by continuing to believe and worshipping God i am further humiliating this voice
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