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lan11
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- Feb 2, 2023
- 18
I've sh'd in some sort of way since I was a child but stopped a few years ago when coincidentally I'd been put on a medication which has studies that it reduces self harm/suicidal ideation.
I've had the urge to do it lately so I tried cutting myself and I just couldn't do it. I got the blade and tried to slice my skin and I just couldn't put the pressure on it. It's so weird - I used to cut to the point of needing stitches and both my arms are littered in scars but for some reason I just couldn't do it now.
Now I feel like shit because I just wanted to express physically how I mentally feel and I couldn't even do that. Can't kill myself properly and can't self harm now.
I don't know if it is the medication or just getting a bit older (frontal lobe developing and all that).
Has anyone else struggled to self harm, even when they wanted to?
I've had the urge to do it lately so I tried cutting myself and I just couldn't do it. I got the blade and tried to slice my skin and I just couldn't put the pressure on it. It's so weird - I used to cut to the point of needing stitches and both my arms are littered in scars but for some reason I just couldn't do it now.
Now I feel like shit because I just wanted to express physically how I mentally feel and I couldn't even do that. Can't kill myself properly and can't self harm now.
I don't know if it is the medication or just getting a bit older (frontal lobe developing and all that).
Has anyone else struggled to self harm, even when they wanted to?