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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,140
I miss my impulsiveness I had as kid. I hate this extreme rational mind, I overthink stuff so much that in the end I rarely do anything. In many cases doing nothing is the best option, at least when im already in a bad state of mind and in public/work where I have to keep my stuff together..
But when it comes to ctb its very annoying.
Whenever im drunk I feel like I have access to my true feelings for life. Im less inhibited and very drawn towards ctb. I totally love it for that reason.
Once I got my method, i will use the first impulsive state to pull trough.
Anyone else the same way?
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,907
Just about everyone is hesitant about that last step! One reason so many people are here.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
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As a veteran of impulsive, failed attempts, in part due to mood swings, I'd rather plan it properly down to that very last step and get it right.
 
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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
I'm drunk at the moment.

Contemplating slicing myself up.

I'm an overdoser, but don't have the means to take one now.

Alcohol is a great tool. It expands the mind, and allows one's true feelings to take over. I know this, because, being an overdoser, you have to drink the right amount of alcohol, combined with the tablets (in my case, I'm up to 300) to stand a chance.

I've been in so many comas, and on life support so many times, to qualify this.

I have no-one.

Sending love x.
 
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Artemisia

Experienced
May 24, 2024
237
Yes! Unfortunately for me, I wanted to live, it's just that I'm too sick and there's no hope left, but I keep going to this one last doctor, then this one last therapist, then a last doctor with a different speciality... Not a single one gives a damn and the therapists only keep doing it worse. I want this to end, I want so much for this to end, but I'm so physically exhausted it's even too much getting things going. And I still wanted to live... So I'm just dying the slow death of the cowards.
 
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LaughingGoat

Mage
Apr 11, 2024
589
It's the reason I have so much respect for the actions of Dr. Kevorkian, he sacrificed just about everything to help people over the final hurdle.
 

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