Anyone else gets depressed when looking at pictures when you were happy?

[LifeSucks39]

I watch past pictures of me in Facebook and I get really depressed I was happy back then I was thin I had my relationship my work now I have nothing

 

[HeyIamWhy]

Kinda... I think that seeing every picture of me before make me depressed. Happy or not.
Because happy : well I'm not now and I don't how when I will be like that again

Sad/depressed : that been a while, and that didn't changed so much.

(sry for my bad English ^^')

 

[I screwed up]

Yes very very much ... Even thinking abt them makes me depressed ... I try n black out my entire past as much as possible

 

[Jumper Geo]

I came across some pictures of when I was on a Sumui Detox, I used to love them spend a week or 10 nights partying and two weeks detoxing, walking rock to rock on the beach 4 times a day from 8am to chill out and lose weight, hire mopeds and whizz around the island completely sober and then at Sumui airport feeling happy, relaxed and healthy plus it was funny, people not able to work out why you look so slim and refreshed, lol well that feeling lasted about a month in the UK.

Plus I took advantage of the dentists I would always have my teeth cleaned or a white filling at a fraction of UK prices.

 

[Rockman]

Definetly yes.

 

[qwerty32]

I've been avoiding looking at past pics of my relationship. Yes it was a good time but I can't look at them because it hurts me.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Oh my gosh yes! It's so painful to look at pictures of me pre 2014 when I was still happy, loved, felt good, and had a future. I want me back, I want my life back..but sadly that woman has been dead long ago.

 

[Quarky00]

It's extremely painful .

Things weren't alright in the past but I had happy moments and fun . Some parties , visits at the beach -- with a genuine smile of true happiness . And with people around . In the last 3 years I have none of that and looking at that past it feels like a totally different person , whom I don't even know . Even stupid photos with no meaning , like a random graffiti I shot while strolling the streets , is so painful , because I do nothing anymore .


It always makes me cry since 99% of me is gone .


(Even without pictures I sometimes have flashbacks of my "previous life" -- it's horrible)

 

[Epsilon0]

When I see photos of myself pre-illness, I don't feel I am looking at myself. It's a strange feeling.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I sit out in the sun feeling tired and get flashbacks to my old life. It feels both sad and unreal. Like all this now is happening to someone else and I'll wake up tomorrow at home with my car and get up and go to work.
I have pictures but it hurts even more to look at them. I've no need to anyway as I have the memories.
This thing I have become, it isn't me. But it is me now, I have no choice so I have to accept it.

 

[Forest Fire]

People will be able to tell how long I was fucked for when they look back through pictures taken throughout my life. Something got took out my eyes and smile when I was 5, it is written over my face.
If I ever see pictures of myself as a toddler it wrecks me

 

[strand]

I don't think I was happy when I was younger, but yes, I also look at old pictures now and I can "see" happiness, even in dull moments. It makes me sad.

 

[Epsilon0]

I sit out in the sun feeling tired and get flashbacks to my old life. It feels both sad and unreal. Like all this now is happening to someone else and I'll wake up tomorrow at home with my car and get up and go to work.
I have pictures but it hurts even more to look at them. I've no need to anyway as I have the memories.
This thing I have become, it isn't me. But it is me now, I have no choice so I have to accept it.

"This thing I have become, it isn't me. But it is me now, I have no choice so I have to accept it."


I was me, but now she's gone.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

"This thing I have become, it isn't me. But it is me now, I have no choice so I have to accept it."


I was me, but now she's gone.

I thought I was gone too. But I was there inside cowering in a corner. Maybe she is still there. I'm still here, I'm just different. Worse and weaker in some ways. Better and stronger in others.

 

[GiveUp]

I sit out in the sun feeling tired and get flashbacks to my old life. It feels both sad and unreal. Like all this now is happening to someone else and I'll wake up tomorrow at home with my car and get up and go to work.
I have pictures but it hurts even more to look at them. I've no need to anyway as I have the memories.
This thing I have become, it isn't me. But it is me now, I have no choice so I have to accept it.

Yes! Old photos feel like another life, another me. Nowadays i have derealisation often and I feel like this life isn't real. It's all simulated somehow and I'm going through the motions. I exist but I dont live anymore. In the old photos, I am alive. Like the old me is trapped in those photos and cant get out.

 

[ready 2 go]

Yeah. I don't recognise the person staring back at me in those pictures. I was once full of life. My mind and soul have since died. Counting down the days until my body's gone too.

 

[Freedent]

There hasn't been a time in my life where i've been happy, or even remotely at peace, so at least i don't have to worry about that trigger

 

[Taraxias]

I dont want to see old pictures or even remember of good moments before this terrible monster that got me which is called tinnitus and hyperacousis. When i see them i feel completly empty inside and feel like the today is a bad dream and it will burst like a bubble and i will be cured and happy

 

[dysfunctional]

During my first suicidal period, it drove me completely nuts. As of right now, I'm able to appreciate the great times I had before I became bipolar.

 

[zer05mdy]

It's an awful experience seeing past memories of yourself and not knowing how everything got so bad, so quickly.

 

[Passersby]

Yes. Big time. Very sad looking at those old pics full of joy and good times. I haven't looked at them for a while and will try to not ever look at them again for my well-being. Whole different time, whole other person. 2 different lives. If time travel only existed things could be fixed. Just have to go forward in death and hope for the best.

 

[zi99]

Yes, it really hurts. Everything changed, things that happened to me is really bad, no one deserves it

 

[dmsdnd18]

Absolutely. And it's funny because at the time when those pictures were taken, I thought I was depressed then.. but it's only ever gotten worse. So now when I look at them I wish I could just go back. I'd rather deal with the problems I had then than the ones I have now. For any Office fans, "I wish there was a way to know you're in the good old days before you've actually left them."

 

[MissStarr]

I feel bad for the person in my old pictures. Back then, I had no idea things would go the way they did. And part of me wonders if I could have prevented some of the things that brought me to this website

 

[ithappens]

It's been so long since I was genuinely happy that I'd have to look back on pictures from when I was 10 or younger to see true happiness. Everything after that I look at myself and maybe sometimes there's contentment, but mostly there is forced happiness from when I was trying to convince myself that things were okay and anxiety shines through my eyes. I was and continue to merely put on an overly exaggerated mask to try and keep others at ease.

 

[gus.nixon]

Anything that comes from a certain window of time will do it for me. I get nostalgic over certain past decades. For instance, an episode of the original Magnum, P.I. with Tom Selleck will quite literally bring me to tears. It's not necessarily a sad feeling though. Nostalgia is really the only happiness I am afforded these days.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

I watch past pictures of me in Facebook and I get really depressed I was happy back then I was thin I had my relationship my work now I have nothing

It's not even pics of me, but pics of anyone or anything that I know, at a time where I was happy, makes me miserable and want to CTB even more

 

[BrokenConk3r]

You can't get depressed if you were never happy on the first place, check mate.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Not at pictures but at simple past circumstances and contexts. I thought I'd be miserable in high school - was prom queen; thought I'd fail in college - made good friends and graduated with distinction etc; Even my prior relationship which I thought was very abusive now seems to not have been so... or maybe I'm too sleepy. Point is, every "previous" area in my life educational, work, relationship seems to have been great compared to how stressed and depressed I felt in the moment

 

[mediocre]

What's depressing for me is not having any photos of when I was happy. Or any photos at all really after age 10.