Discussion Anyone else alone all the time?

[atarax1a]

Same, sort of. No friends, but a patner. Still. A patner is not the same than a friend, is a type of friend.

 

[Saponification]

Looking back, I've literally never had a single loyal person in my life. Even my own family bullied me relentlessly. So I was used to not having anyone. I didn't care about being alone. At school, I never so much as looked anyone in the eyes and most days I wouldn't pronounce a sentence.

I don't know exactly how, but the emptiness got to me and I attempted socializing. Of course, I've no idea how to socialize because I had a dogshit social upbringing. My misery increased ten-fold as I started asphyxiating on my own loneliness.

Though I'm pretty sure that if my social life weren't so shitty it wouldn't have changed much, since my dissatisfaction with life comes from many places.

 

[katara]

I brushed it all off back when I was a NEET by just distracting myself with games and such. Now I go to school again and feel like a complete outcast, just like how I've always felt at school before. Nobody approaches me and says hello except sometimes a teacher. I got social anxiety so I can't really approach anyone either. I also feel like I don't want to befriend them so that's kind of a conflicting thought lol.

Tbh school has always felt like a place for making friends most of the time. Barely learning, even if I graduated high school I don't think I could've gone to college, not where I live. It's good that u are at least trying.