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Alreadylate

Alreadylate

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Jun 8, 2025
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hell toupee

Student
Sep 9, 2024
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I plan to ctb on Saturday or Sunday, by hanging.

I lost my wife to suicide, became wheelchair bound, lost the use of my fingers, and lost my business all within a year.

I am not scared to die, my only hesitation is leaving my elderly mother, but I can't take it anymore.

You want to dm or something?
 
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Aziz354

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Sep 20, 2024
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I plan to CTB tomorrow with SN. Scared to leave as my family is waiting for me for an event tomorrow.
 
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Alreadylate

Alreadylate

Student
Jun 8, 2025
114
I plan to CTB tomorrow with SN. Scared to leave as my family is waiting for me for an event tomorrow.
I wish you the best!
I plan to ctb on Saturday or Sunday, by hanging.

I lost my wife to suicide, became wheelchair bound, lost the use of my fingers, and lost my business all within a year.

I am not scared to die, my only hesitation is leaving my elderly mother, but I can't take it anymore.

You want to dm or something?
I'm really sorry for you man... I have discord, and also we can DM if you like
I plan to ctb on Saturday or Sunday, by hanging.

I lost my wife to suicide, became wheelchair bound, lost the use of my fingers, and lost my business all within a year.

I am not scared to die, my only hesitation is leaving my elderly mother, but I can't take it anymore.

You want to dm or something?
I'm really sorry for you man... I have discord, and also we can DM if you like
 
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hell toupee

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Sep 9, 2024
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I wish you the best!

I'm really sorry for you man... I have discord, and also we can DM if you like

I'm really sorry for you man... I have discord, and also we can DM if you like

We can talk here, on chat, or dm, doesn't matter to me. Unfortunately I don't have discord.

I appreciate your kind words. As I just got done telling someone else - don't feel sorry for me. Hell is relative and we are all going through it one way or another.

Certainly, there are people in this world who have it a lot worse off than me - I try to look at it like thank god I'm not completely paralyzed.

Anyways, I'm certainly not scared to ctb - it's actually kind of exciting to me (not the act itself, but my own personal belief that death is just a new beginning).

What method do you plan to use? When is your departure ticket?
 
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Off_Switch

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Aug 15, 2025
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I plan to ctb on Saturday or Sunday, by hanging.

I lost my wife to suicide, became wheelchair bound, lost the use of my fingers, and lost my business all within a year.

I am not scared to die, my only hesitation is leaving my elderly mother, but I can't take it anymore.

You want to dm or something?
Will she have anyone to take care of her?
 
1nonlylonrr

1nonlylonrr

perpetual purgatory
Aug 14, 2025
7
i plan to ctb this week through partial hanging, i just scared to get in that mood where you feel hyper-aware and existential. besides that there's no hesitation
 
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Aug 15, 2025
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I doubt I will do it this week, but I can definitely feel the walls closing in on me faster than any week ever. I'm getting close.

The acceptance that nothing is going to save me...not even God, is very sobering and debilitating to cope with. Trying my best to stay numb as I can to it all. No sense in worrying about anything in this life if I'm going to be gone soon.
 
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Alreadylate

Alreadylate

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Jun 8, 2025
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i plan to ctb this week through partial hanging, i just scared to get in that mood where you feel hyper-aware and existential. besides that there's no hesitation
I wish you the best!
 

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