Discussion Anybody else suicidal because of their job?

[kosmischerunfall]

Lowkey this shit has made me feel like i'm retarded

Living in the most depraved living conditions like, no mental stimulation, bad eating habits, no movement

Has all contributed to this mess, my brain that is incapable of processing, applying and remembering information, it made my studying much slower.

I FEEL SOOO DUMMMBBB!!!

it's all because of my avpd, which stems from bad childhood, now i have to pay for this shit

 

[mysticatedwine]

i don't have a job yet, i'm a student, but the routine that my student life has given me has killed most of my interest for the subject i'm studying (neurology), it's draining most of my motivation and energy to do other things that do interest me, and it makes me feel an incredible social pressure because of my inability to fit in. i'm autistic, i talk too loud and too fast, i don't have the right hand gesture when talking, my jokes don't land and i learn at a different pace than other people. i feel like a burden in every group project, around people that hate me

i don't know what your job is, but i hope you have a place where you belong on the side. wherever you are sounds like a place completely inadequate for decent living, although i feel like you're blaming it all on yourself. don't feel bad for not doing well in a place that treat you like shit: you're not dumb nor retarded to me

 

[Lions303]

Im really sorry your feeling like this. Do you find he feeling subsides on an more average/okay day then gets really strong on the bad days? Its really shit as well when youre treated like just another payroll number and they dont care about you. Im sorry. Have been yes and dont think it 'defines you as a human'. Its more the side affects that affect you, but the job you do is more of a label of what you do not who you are

 

[Fe(IV)]

I wouldn't say suicidal, but after 5-6 months I get so drained I honestly think it's an autistic showdown. I start doing super good at the job but stop being punctual, stop socializing slowly.

I hate to vote "yes" but I genuinely think that's how "the world is supposed to work". So much revolves around labor, what we do for work, how employers exploit us and, in the absence of exploitation, the theory of the different types of labor we would undertake instead. It's like the commonly accepted fact that the "default mode" of humans is to work. My brain must have missed the memo

 

[dudebl]

My lack of job, after quitting a six figure career 3 years ago because of depression and burnout- now 36 and will never get back into anything to support myself because of ageism and the terrible economy.

I should have just stayed in my job and let it fully destroy me mentally, I'm fully destroyed now anyway.

 

[RadiantNumber]

Yes, my job was shitty as hell, but now when I am unemployed it is worst

 

[58Alice85]

working in modern society feels like being cattle in some warehouse being mined
i am so happy i am unemployed

 

[brighteyesfan144]

no a job does not define you... i'm surprised so many people think this. i mean there's a difference between a job you work, and your entire career path if it aligns with your life goal and endeavors, whether they are financially successful or not. that sort of defines you.

a job doesn't define you, it just pays the bills.

 

[whiskeyblanket]

My job is so drastically misaligned with my personal set of strengths and weaknesses that it definitely contributes to my suicidality. Interestingly, my field has one of the lowest suicide rates (k-12 education).

 

[emptymiku]

not the job itself, but the knowledge i'm gonna have to get a 60 hr/week job one day. growing up is one of the worst things that's ever happened to me

 

[Unknown21]

Suicidal bc i have job, suicidal bc i have a job, suicidal bc i have to search for a job.

 

[unluckysadness]

In my last workplace, I had suicidal thoughs because of too much stress. There was chronic understaffing and I developed a rare neuromuscular disease with no cure. I left this work 4 years ago. If your job is making you sick, please quit it before getting disabled. I know it's difficult to leave because of money needs. But my life is ruined because of this shitty job and huge stress. And the pay was bad, so I lost everything. Working can make you suicidal and kill you. I confirm

 

[fuzzydunlop]

I work in a company that hires people with disabilities. They accept the fact that I'm a disabled vet with severe ptsd, and give me accommodations. I've been told I'm doing a great job, but I experience a lot of paranoia at work. If people are acting less friendly or weird, I automatically think it has to do with me and that I'm going to get fired. I've felt a lot of depression, anxiety and thoughts of suicide because of this, but supposedly this is all in my head

 

[w1ngedpearl]

Not a specific job but understanding that I can get only a low paid job because I didn't finish university and don't have any skills. I don't want to work. Adulthood sucks. Having to work to waste all money on food and not being able to afford anything definitely makes me suicidal. It won't happen tho. CTB is my answer to the problem.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My job has always defined me, because being creative became a coping mechanism in childhood and gave me a drive/ sense of purpose for many years. For me now, it's more that it isn't working so well. It's feeling like a chore, like every other damn thing. I'm just so tired too. So for me, it's the maladaptive coping mechanism that got me this far but that's failing.