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Kamaainakupua

Kamaainakupua

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Mar 15, 2026
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I wrote a much longer reply, but it got lost when I got distracted for too long looking for a book title.
When I was 8 or so, I was traumatized and went into a sort of shell of emotional defense, like a cocoon. Whenever I was confronted by emotions, especially fear, I panicked and retreated, using unhealthy coping mechanisms to escape. If this sounds familiar, or is what you meant by insect-like emotional depth, then yes, it's probably fixable.
Even insects have have to grow, and it's not usually a pleasant or painless experience. If you want to increase your depth, you'll have to experience more emotions, and make room for your range to increase. I was both wildly emotional, yet callous and shallow, with an occasional side trip to stone-cold blank wall. I had to learn how to moderate, and rein in, my emotions, without reverting to crawling back into the cocoon. If you allow yourself the freedom to feel, it's probably going to hurt, a lot, but you don't have to do it alone, and there are others like you who can go through it with you. Unless you have biopsychosocial limitations, you can grow out of "insect" mode and expand your emotional spectrum. This is a great place to make that journey, since we have a full collection of former caterpillars that turned into butterlies, unicorns, or dragons, or even people. Good luck, and best wishes for more feelings, especially peace, love and happiness for you.
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(P.S. The book I was looking for is "Hope for the Flowers" by Trina Paulus, 1972)
 
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