Discussion Any failed CTB attempts?

[archaea]

4x, three with N's twin sisters. Not leaving home was my downfall. But I like to be in my bed. All 3 were near successes :(

 

[S like Siren]

I Felt an incredible relief, and no pain if you ever fell from your bed that hurts a lot more surreal i know, adrenaline acts so fast, but i felt so defeated looking at the sky, but what i did not know is that i was actually dying from internal blood loss, the only reason i am still alive is because a paramedic was walking by and was the first person to come to my aid and an ambulance was chilling around the corner not joking i was already inside an ambulance after like 2-3 minutes after my fall then i got unconsious, i was given an 95% of dying due to severe blood loss to my family preparing for the worse, so yeah

wow...I have no words.
it's an incredible story... thank you for explaining how things went, this makes me feel more secure in my ctb attempt.

 

[chailatte2005]

Yeah I've overdosed a lot, like a lot a lot . Hung myself a few times as well.
I died twice and been brought back twice ...

What did u overdose on

 

[sleepy_redcar]

I wanted to ask if anyone has had any failed attempts at CTB?

I personally only had one, in which I tried to cut myself to death. Did a terrible job since I'm still here, but the knife I tried to use was too dull. It was an old knife my friend gave me back in highschool. If I had a sharper one, I think I might've pulled it off, but that's most likely not true.

I want to try again with a different method, but I'm afraid of failure, and my cowardice gets in the way.

Yes! Partial Hanging, my partner walked in on me (they were supposed to be hanging out for longer but called it a night early) and my consciousness was pretty gone so I had granular vision and couldn't hear much, was unresponsive for a long minute but got shaken back into functioning eventually, image they say will never leave their mind

Since I was 15 I've tried to ctb 13 or 14 times, and 1 "almost" attempt. I lost track lol. The majority of them were overdoses on otc medicine and antidepressants (I was a teenager okay I'm more than aware that this is not a viable method lol)

It's our instinct to survive; after all we are only human :/ The thought of failing an attempt to ctb is incredibly nerve wracking. I think putting your negative feelings and thoughts into your attempt can help bypass the si and help you feel more determined. I know it's easier said than done though

If you are incredibly on something that helps as well, the higher you are the less you think