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byou

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Jan 15, 2026
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My boyfriend just put this on to watch before he went to bed. It was so hard to not share I'm a member. Even more difficult was not correcting misinformation. For a sec I was almost nervous he knew I was on here. I don't think so.

The video was mostly fear-mongering, as to be expected, but I was pleased that she at least gave some space to express some prochoice opinions.


Oh I HATE this channel..their videos r so lazily researched like their videos SUCK
 
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CatLvr

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It's absolutely amazing to me ... This forum is the VERY REASON I did not commit suicide. But they overlook the fact that we are not "pro-suicide" here, we are "pro- CHOICE".
 
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SanagiMezamete

SanagiMezamete

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Jan 1, 2026
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Therapy and medication carries risks as well. For example I don't want to go back on any type of antidepressants because doing so would likely lead to me losing my job.
I have heard about this in certain fields/countries and it's so short-sighted and callous. They're forcing all their workers who are depressed to bottle it up and self-medicate, even if they want meds and therapy. Usually it's because of the same hypocrites calling for everyone to talk about suicide openly and not be afraid of treatment. There must be a better way of handling these cases.
 
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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
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My boyfriend just put this on to watch before he went to bed. It was so hard to not share I'm a member. Even more difficult was not correcting misinformation. For a sec I was almost nervous he knew I was on here. I don't think so.

The video was mostly fear-mongering, as to be expected, but I was pleased that she at least gave some space to express some prochoice opinions.


I especially love the "if you enjoy disturbing content" line because it pretty much sums up society wanting to be morally righteous about things while voyeuristically peering in.

It's kind of like the people obsessed with Crime podcasts- it is objectively people enjoying other's misfortune for their own entertainment. No one actually cares about the victim or getting "justice".

People don't care about mentally ill people struggling either…otherwise most countries would have better healthcare and support systems for the mentally ill. People just want to gleefully look in on other's suffering.
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

An existence transfigured by failure.
Mar 4, 2024
810
It's absolutely amazing to me ... This forum is the VERY REASON I did not commit suicide. But they overlook the fact that we are not "pro-suicide" here, we are "pro- CHOICE".
I completely resonate with this. When I first came to the forum I was acutely suicidal. This place has helped me more than talk therapy ever has in regards to suicidality.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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It's absolutely amazing to me ... This forum is the VERY REASON I did not commit suicide. But they overlook the fact that we are not "pro-suicide" here, we are "pro- CHOICE".

"Bt u r stll alve s/ u mst b a pred8tr"
 
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elenaboo25

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Oct 19, 2025
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I have heard about this in certain fields/countries and it's so short-sighted and callous. They're forcing all their workers who are depressed to bottle it up and self-medicate, even if they want meds and therapy. Usually it's because of the same hypocrites calling for everyone to talk about suicide openly and not be afraid of treatment. There must be a better way of handling these cases.
In my case it has nothing to do with the type of job or the country I live in. I was on antidepressants when I started that job. Then I stopped taking antidepressants, my boss noticed I was getting better at my job and I have since had a promotion and multiple pay raises. I am afraid that if I were to take antidepressants again, I would get worse at my job again and I would lose my job due to no longer being able to properly do it. I also do not want to take pain medication for my chronic pain for the same reason. I make do with paracetamol, as I fear anything stronger would impair my cognitive abilities.
 
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Dec 10, 2025
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I tried listening to this bitch. I think I prefer the sounds of nails on chalkboards.
 
SanagiMezamete

SanagiMezamete

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Jan 1, 2026
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In my case it has nothing to do with the type of job or the country I live in. I was on antidepressants when I started that job. Then I stopped taking antidepressants, my boss noticed I was getting better at my job and I have since had a promotion and multiple pay raises. I am afraid that if I were to take antidepressants again, I would get worse at my job again and I would lose my job due to no longer being able to properly do it. I also do not want to take pain medication for my chronic pain for the same reason. I make do with paracetamol, as I fear anything stronger would impair my cognitive abilities.
That's understandable and perfectly valid too. It sounds like a very difficult situation without a clear cut decision to make. I'm sorry you even have to make a decision like risking your job vs not seeking treatment. This world really doesn't doesn't make it easy for people to heal, or even to minimize their suffering as in chronic pain.
 
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elenaboo25

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Oct 19, 2025
122
That's understandable and perfectly valid too. It sounds like a very difficult situation without a clear cut decision to make. I'm sorry you even have to make a decision like risking your job vs not seeking treatment. This world really doesn't doesn't make it easy for people to heal, or even to minimize their suffering as in chronic pain.
I do go to therapy.

What makes it even harder especially regarding chronic pain is that chronic pain conditions often don't get recognised as a disability in Switzerland, and oftentimes claims for disability money due to chronic pain get rejected. And disability money isn't enough to live off anyway, so if I want to keep living alone and having enough money I need to keep working either way.
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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"Bt u r stll alve s/ u mst b a pred8tr"
Right?? Cuz no good deed goes unpunished. (And people wonder why I don't like people. 😶 Lol)
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

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Oct 9, 2025
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Was the video taken down or limited to subscribers ?
 
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AngelTear

AngelTear

Dead before 30
Oct 27, 2025
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The video is now private so I can't see it but I'm certain I know who y'all are talking about.
I didn't even finish the video, I skipped around and I was shocked that she didn't blur usernames of the people on here...that's the main reason I didn't watch it.
Was the video taken down or limited to subscribers ?
It says the video was made private for me so it was taken down as of me writing this. Could possibly for subs but I'm not sure
 
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ScaredCutter

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Oct 16, 2025
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Was the video taken down or limited to subscribers ?
it's very likely to be privated/deleted as she made a community post about it. anything locked behind a "member" thing always shows up if u do/dont have the member channel stuff
Community post
its so long, i cant be bothered to screenshot it
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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it's very likely to be privated/deleted as she made a community post about it. anything locked behind a "member" thing always shows up if u do/dont have the member channel stuff
Community post
its so long, i cant be bothered to screenshot it

Kudos tbf
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
350
I have made the decision to take down my most recent video. While I stand by my reasons for covering the topic in the first place, I acknowledge some of the criticisms you guys made and ultimately I don't want to risk the forum gaining more users because of my video.
Reactions to this were mixed – many of you supported my decision to cover it and the way I went about it; I even had a couple of comments from active users on the forum who said my video had changed their perspective on it and made them realise that it's an echo chamber that will inevitably make them spiral. This was my intention. In addition to raising awareness of the dangers of this forum in general, I hoped that by highlighting its shady origins and the fact that those who founded it likely didn't have the users' best interests at heart, that some existing users might realise this is not a good place for them to be, and that there are many other more helpful resources for people who are contemplating taking their own lives.
Hmm.. So she did plan on us seeing this video, and she did want to focus attention this forum in specific making it somewhat recognizable ig.
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
564
I wonder if Youtube would take down a video that viewed this website positively.
 
jeevasO-o

jeevasO-o

Disqualified As a Human Being
Jan 15, 2026
82
Omg she finnaly deleted it!! After all the backlash! I also commented there that she should do that and reported it
I wonder if Youtube would take down a video that viewed this website positively.
Thankfully the video is gone now
I wonder if the video is monetized, I'm not gonna watch it but it wouldn't surprise me if it was.
It wasn't age restricted but thankfully the video is gone now
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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I resent being called an echo chamber. You can say the exact same thing about pro-life people. Just people repeating the same bullshit.
Do pretty much nothing to help. Useless platitudes don't work.
People come here because it's the only support group we have to talk honestly about how we really feel.
Some do end up CTB.... Most on here haven't or they left the site. The site has been around for almost a decade.
Very few have CTB considering how many members we have/had.
I believe it's everyones right to die if they choose to. I also believe in their right to live if they want.
 

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