• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

P

PhDone

Experienced
Jul 29, 2024
259
So we lost some more beautiful people from our group this week. We're still trying to figure out what ctb by SN really goes like. We're still all pissed at having f all options. And we're still trying to figure out if God is going to smite us.

Meantime in the real world my ex work colleagues are continue to be golden children, playing in the sun and posting about their awesomeness. Hard to watch from the pits of sickness.

This forum is really my only hope and salvation atm. I'm here keeping myself going just with some sense I might be able to get out this nightmare existence soon. As another weekend comes around has anything shifted?

Sometimes the threads help me find a bit more courage or a bit more certainty. Sometimes I get comfort in knowing others are in similar situations. And I also learn about things and about lots of wise and compassionate people the world has no business losing.

I so appreciate everyone. And maybe I'm a fraction further fwd than I was last week. It can feel like ground hog day in hell. So happy to have something, anything that is a step. How are you keeping stepping fwd?

Much love to everyone.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: star.trip, chargercablesport and NoPoint2Life

Similar threads

digitalblackhole
Replies
12
Views
487
Suicide Discussion
seekingpeace88
S
Darkover
Replies
13
Views
594
Suicide Discussion
TBONTB
T
SoulCage
Replies
0
Views
52
Recovery
SoulCage
SoulCage
Archness
Replies
1
Views
153
Suicide Discussion
Michelstaedter
Michelstaedter