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PhDone

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Jul 29, 2024
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So we lost some more beautiful people from our group this week. We're still trying to figure out what ctb by SN really goes like. We're still all pissed at having f all options. And we're still trying to figure out if God is going to smite us.

Meantime in the real world my ex work colleagues are continue to be golden children, playing in the sun and posting about their awesomeness. Hard to watch from the pits of sickness.

This forum is really my only hope and salvation atm. I'm here keeping myself going just with some sense I might be able to get out this nightmare existence soon. As another weekend comes around has anything shifted?

Sometimes the threads help me find a bit more courage or a bit more certainty. Sometimes I get comfort in knowing others are in similar situations. And I also learn about things and about lots of wise and compassionate people the world has no business losing.

I so appreciate everyone. And maybe I'm a fraction further fwd than I was last week. It can feel like ground hog day in hell. So happy to have something, anything that is a step. How are you keeping stepping fwd?

Much love to everyone.
 
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