RayoSinSol
I can’t ignore the abyss. It is real.
- Mar 26, 2020
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Anyone savvy on possible anesthetics that are somewhat easy to synthesize or buy?
The idea of using SN and my blood turning brown inside of me grosses me way the hell out. Blood stuff grosses me out in general.
I'm certainly not eliminating the SN option. Hell, if I can find or figure out how synthesize N, that sounds like heaven. But, well, something about finding an effective anesthetic, tying weights to my limbs, climbing over the rails, and cutting to black off the Chesapeake Bay bridge just feels more...beautiful(?). Call me a romantic but the ocean is just where I'd prefer to perish, k? Won't be beautiful for onlookers if there are any, but ya know that's what the anesthetic is all about.
Chloroform doesn't seem to be as long-lasting as I was hoping, but if there's some way to keep its effects going until I'm gone, that's the route I'll take.
If not chloroform, something that I have a good chance of effectively acquiring that could knock me out for the necessary amount of time to drown would be great. The sooner the better. I just want to be done with myself for good.
The idea of using SN and my blood turning brown inside of me grosses me way the hell out. Blood stuff grosses me out in general.
I'm certainly not eliminating the SN option. Hell, if I can find or figure out how synthesize N, that sounds like heaven. But, well, something about finding an effective anesthetic, tying weights to my limbs, climbing over the rails, and cutting to black off the Chesapeake Bay bridge just feels more...beautiful(?). Call me a romantic but the ocean is just where I'd prefer to perish, k? Won't be beautiful for onlookers if there are any, but ya know that's what the anesthetic is all about.
Chloroform doesn't seem to be as long-lasting as I was hoping, but if there's some way to keep its effects going until I'm gone, that's the route I'll take.
If not chloroform, something that I have a good chance of effectively acquiring that could knock me out for the necessary amount of time to drown would be great. The sooner the better. I just want to be done with myself for good.
