Method An attempt of an attempt

[kittiwake0822]

There's a subway station near where I lived I've already walked to twice with plans in my head to jump the tracks. Twice I pussied out and walked away. It feels too grotesque especially for the people who have to clean up after. As far as I know, people hate railway jumpers. I get it. I can't drag innocent people into whatever i'm dealing with

I live with my parents still and I don't have access to money, pills, rope, etc. I want something quick, doesn't have to be painless as long as I can do it in one, swift action and I'm passed out immediately

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish to be gone as well, all I want is to never suffer again, it feels so cruel to me how painless, guaranteed ways to permanently cease existing aren't just easily accessible, I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Yeah. I've tried to do that. walked away shaking like a leaf . brutal.