Again, new. Only learning about SN now

[noreallynotmarcy]

I can't believe it's that easy to access. I can't help but think about the panic between consumption and death. I tried to OD once and this fear between swallowing and sleeping washed over me— realizing what I'd done but too sleepy to move.

It's wild. I was so hell bent on ending my life, and it really was centered around my thesis and self-loathing. Those were the two main things.

The thought of purchase makes me a little giddy, Ngl. Wondering if it'll be the first thing I turn to the next time I have a serious bout of ideation.

 

[andreamysk]

Not really that easy to access, from what I read in the forum...

If you ever decide, perhaps with SN panic could be less of a problem than with OD (a gentler accompaniment to the departure).

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Not easy to access anymore I'm afraid.