Venting After you've been hurting for so long people stop giving a shit.

[Indecisivesandollar]

If I wasn't so nauseous I'd try to hang myself again. My dad is tired of me, I was crying my eyes out and he just kept sighing and checking his watch. It made me think about when I was 14 and I tried to CTB and he was just mad that I was lying to him about doing my homework.

 

[Reeincarnation]

What you're saying is true and I relate to it.
More often than not I don't bother telling people about my feelings because I noticed that it gets very tiring for most of them. I have received that reaction from my own parents, my friends, my ex boyfriends.

After a while people don't even take you seriously, sometimes you are met with replies just to be cordial, but there is no real empathy behind it.

This is something I don't understand because if someone is constantly suffering then that should be a bigger reason to stay supportive in someone's life.

Sorry you're going through this, I hope it gets better for you soon

 

[notreallybored]

If I wasn't so nauseous I'd try to hang myself again. My dad is tired of me, I was crying my eyes out and he just kept sighing and checking his watch. It made me think about when I was 14 and I tried to CTB and he was just mad that I was lying to him about doing my homework.

ב''ה,

You got to experience the mind of G-d.

 

[chillino]

I know it hurts to be given up on however it isnt because people dont love you.. I think they just dont know how to help you anymore because in the end you have to safe yourself. I believe in you, be the light in your life you never had.

 

[WalmartSoap]

I get where you're coming from.

My mom sometimes goes out of her way to make fun of my SH scars if I whine about my body when I change in front of her. My parents put me in therapy, but I don't believe they ever really cared about getting me better, rather they cared about shutting up my complaints and wishes to die. After a certain point, it's just going through the motions for them. And I get it to an extent, sometimes I can be unbearable.

I guess that's why I crave unconditional love more than anything right now even though it feels so incredibly surreal to me and, frankly, unrealistic. Wish there was an easy way out.

 

[Bishop]

I know it hurts to be given up on however it isnt because people dont love you.. I think they just dont know how to help you anymore because in the end you have to safe yourself. I believe in you, be the light in your life you never had.

Agreed. Self love. I've learned to become very independent and self reliant. And a certain confidence comes with it.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

This is true. No one cares anymore or wants to listen to you after a while. And I get it. I cant stand myself anymore. I just lock myself in my room and cry or come on this forum so I don't feel so alone. People say those that want to ctb are not a burden but clearly they are. Except if you do end up killing yourself they change their tune really fast. "Oh why didn't they reach out, this is so tragic...blah blah blah