Help advice please?

[lukewarmlemon4de]

I can ctb soon easily (all I have to do is jump off my apartment when I have the opportunity to- it's a guaranteed death as I live on the 40th floor) . The problem is I can't commit to actually ctbing, and it doesn't help that I'm really prone to mood swings (esp on my period) so one moment I'd feel the urge to live and one moment I won't, as corny as it sounds. I'm also moving out soon to another apartment that isn't nearly as high so I'd lose out on a relatively easy ctb. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't take the chance now (I mean I do sometimes regret not doing it earlier, not like. I could've anyways lmao)

sorry for the weird rant

 

[white_car]

If you do still feel the "urge to live", then maybe focus on that for now?

Otherwise jumping off the 40th floor doesn't sound like the most peaceful way to go. Not what I would call an "opportunity". Maybe get to that other new home, see what life brings, and reconsider then.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

If you do it now you won't know if the urge to die faded away later. If you still wanna ctb after moving out you can always do hanging

 

[minsolive]

I definitely understand the mood swings, you're not alone on that. but i'm sorry you're dealing with it, it can be so exhausting. i definitely think it's best to wait. jumping can be very painful and at times unreliable. Move to the new place and see how you feel. if you have moments of wanting to live i think it could be worthwhile to explore that. it may become easier to hold on to those moments for longer. i hope you are able to find peace in this life. if you'd like to talk im around.