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ayla

ayla

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Jun 30, 2024
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used to only sh when suuuuuper depressed now i just do it so mindlessly like its not even a coping method to me anymore its full on apart of my everyday routine i legit sleep with razors under my pillow. i do it when im bored, before bed, the second i open my eyes, every single time i get up from bed to do anything im just like oops i almost forgot haha! in school it would almost be my turn for presentation and id ask to go to the bathroom just to cut like it was some pick me up. :c

i dont need deep cuts or multiple at a time anymore im fine with one light cut but obviously throughout the day it stacks up. ugh im doomed
 
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daisyrandone

daisyrandone

suicide livestreamer
Sep 12, 2023
12
not as intense but i was the same way last year. i would wake up and cut, move on with my day, cut before heading to sleep. i think i might've been a little influenced to do it by twitter at one point, but eventually i was just doing it out of habit, which progressed into an addiction. awful thing to deal with.
 
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JoysoftheEmptiness

JoysoftheEmptiness

Experienced
Sep 10, 2024
236
So long as I see blood, I'm happy, but I do like to cut a bit deeper on times, depends on my moods. deepest cuts are on my legs.
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
662
I relate to this. It feels weird if I go a few days without doing it, almost like part of me is missing. I'm sorry things turned out like this 🫂
 
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AwakeTooLong

AwakeTooLong

Ascend or death
Mar 4, 2024
47
used to only sh when suuuuuper depressed now i just do it so mindlessly like its not even a coping method to me anymore its full on apart of my everyday routine i legit sleep with razors under my pillow. i do it when im bored, before bed, the second i open my eyes, every single time i get up from bed to do anything im just like oops i almost forgot haha! in school it would almost be my turn for presentation and id ask to go to the bathroom just to cut like it was some pick me up. :c

i dont need deep cuts or multiple at a time anymore im fine with one light cut but obviously throughout the day it stacks up. ugh im doomed
How do you hide all those cuts/scars? Do you bother to?
 
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ChronicAnamnesis

ChronicAnamnesis

Member
Oct 7, 2024
16
would do it alot more if i lived alone. too risky to do it too much since getting revealed is my actual worst nightmare. that would be my sign to ctb ASAP!
 
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ladylazarus4

ladylazarus4

exhausted
May 12, 2024
265
I used to be like this especially during lockdown 2020-2021. Now, I do very deep cuts 1-2x per month and I can't decide which I'd rather... I guess cutting constantly suck because it's so time consuming but infrequent deep cuts suck because I feel like I have to "make the most" of it and also they are hard to heal, weep fluid through my clothing, and cause nerve damage sooo... sh sucks.
 
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LXR515

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Jun 12, 2024
35
I feel that sometimes when it would get really really bad in my life. It would literally just become part of my routine and even if I didn't feel like cutting I would do it anyway just to remotely feel anything or numb the boredom of life.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
647
I hate how there's nothing that feels quite like self-harm. Idk what to replace it with.
 
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