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Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
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So I am struggling to find a stable full time work from home job. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. Any passion I had has been eradicated. I have an awesome bachelors degree in science. Wanted to go to medical school(WHAT A JOKE) Learned that I actually want humans to die instead. I want to work with Animals but can't drive. The only somewhat job I would be ok with is animals. Unless you are a vet you get paid poverty wages. I do not want to be a slave to make minimum wage and barely afford to live. I also do not want a job where you get degraded and abused and that's every job. My biggest fear is homelessness.

If I die my family gets $100K. I hate my family they are trash. I only live for my cats but I genuinely don't think I can do that anymore because I can't make money to support them. My plan was I work for a bit to save money for the cats then CTB. But I guess I should CTB now so there is 100K in line. My family as awful as they are, like the cats. Not more than me though. I even thought I should CTB after my cats pass but what's the point if I can't support them?

That's all I was created for I guess, an Insurance check.
 
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notreallybored

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Nov 26, 2024
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ב''ה,

Some of us might only have been created for this; take it up with the Creator of all things, I guess.
 
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Obliviate

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Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
844
ב''ה,

Some of us might only have been created for this; take it up with the Creator of all things, I guess.
If there is a creator. Yeah that is what I was created for I guess, an insurance check.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 LTO tape exists
Apr 10, 2025
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Mmm... Ravi (1.5 year old male cat) is a source of joy to me

If you want to, Call the insurance company and tell them that you don't want to be on the policy, maybe even tell them to investigate your death closely, so they will be forced to slow down money transfers if they can't cancel it.
 
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painfully

Lonely guy...
Jun 16, 2025
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Who got the insurance? If it is you, maybe you can ask for the money to go somewhere else if you dont want to go to your family.
 
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Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
844
Mmm... Ravi (1.5 year old male cat) is a source of joy to me

If you want to, Call the insurance company and tell them that you don't want to be on the policy, maybe even tell them to investigate your death closely, so they will be forced to slow down money transfers if they can't cancel it.
Yes animals are the only joy in my life. Well I do want my least abusive member to get the money so she can take care of the cats. I can't even transfer the money to the cats I believe.
Who got the insurance? If it is you, maybe you can ask for the money to go somewhere else if you dont want to go to your family.
Unless I put in a pet trust fund which is probably a legal headache, the money after I die will go to the beneficiaries, I can transfer all the money to one member that will take care of the cats. I was thinking of an animal charity but not sure if it works that way. I do need something for my cats though. Maybe split it?
 
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My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
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Self inflicted death usually cuts life insurance payouts down a decent bit, afaik
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 LTO tape exists
Apr 10, 2025
673
Unless I put in a pet trust fund which is probably a legal headache, the money after I die will go to the beneficiaries, I can transfer all the money to one member that will take care of the cats. I was thinking of an animal charity but not sure if it works that way. I do need something for my cats though. Maybe split it?
Pet trust fund is kinda useful, good ideas
 
claracatchingthebus

claracatchingthebus

Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
Jun 22, 2025
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putting your cats to sleep and donating to an animal charity is an option, you can make a charity a beneficiary

it seems a harsh thing to do, as suicide is hard on the ones left behind. how abusive were they? emotionally abusive or worse?
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

🔑 LTO tape exists
Apr 10, 2025
673
putting your cats to sleep and donating to an animal charity is an option, you can make a charity a beneficiary

it seems a harsh thing to do, as suicide is hard on the ones left behind. how abusive were they? emotionally abusive or worse?
giving the cats for a loving family to adopt is a lot better, pet adoption agencies are plentiful

(idk if the cat wishes to CTB or not)
 
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Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
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Self inflicted death usually cuts life insurance payouts down a decent bit, afaik
Wait really? it does?
Pet trust fund is kinda useful, good ideas
Yeah but it's a legal headache, I would have to go through a lawyer and everything and I am not in the financial or mental space to do so.
putting your cats to sleep and donating to an animal charity is an option, you can make a charity a beneficiary

it seems a harsh thing to do, as suicide is hard on the ones left behind. how abusive were they? emotionally abusive or worse?
I would never put my cats to sleep unless they were in medical distress and I could not afford treatments. I kicked my father out the house which I am incredibly proud of. He was the most abusive and he is terrified of me now and miserable. The others are abusive on the secondary level. They love the cats but they would not take care of them as well as me obviously. They are quite dumb. Cats can live up to 20 years or more and I was willing to stay for my cats but if I can't afford it then why not ctb and let them have the insurance money.
giving the cats for a loving family to adopt is a lot better, pet adoption agencies are plentiful

(idk if the cat wishes to CTB or not)
I don't understand the odd statement of if a cat would want to CTB? I mean I do not know the emotional effects after I am gone that would inflict on my cats, since pets have been known to pass after a loved one does due to grief. pet adoption agencies and shelters are already oversaturated and I do not trust them.
 
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